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David told me I'll be his fiancee' in four months! I know I won't expect it. He'll find a way to surprise me. I'll just know that it's in four months, not necessarily the time, nor the specific day.

Needless to say, I'm very excited!

I used to be so miserable. I had a lot of self-hatred going on, because people made me believe I was not a good person, that I was talentless, and that I was doomed to be alone because nobody would ever love me.

But now, I'm content with the person I am. I'm not a bad person, and I'm not unloved. I'm starting to love the things I once hated myself for liking, such as art and anime...and I DO want to attend art school! I feel so much better, and all because of David. He's really reversed the years of damage that others have caused.

I mean...once, I tried to move on with my life, and I fooled myself into thinking I was happy. Then, one day I woke up and realised that it was all a lie. This time...I'm not lying to myself. As crazy as it sounds, I fell in love at first sight!

Things like that are supposed to happen in movies, but I guess it can really happen!

I'm just a bit nervous, because I think we're going to have a baby sometime next year... >////<; Yeah, I know, I just had a kid, but...David has really wanted to be a father for a long time. He's twenty-five, and ready to settle down. Arietta IS his daughter, but technically not by blood...

I've just been feeling kinda' queasy, uncomfortable, and hungry. ...well, I'm ALWAYS hungry as it is, but this is a different kinda' hungry.

Who knows! I'm just kinda' hoping I am. <<; Hee-hee. I WANT to have a kid with him...although the morning sickness sucks. But still! I'd endure all the crap that comes along with pregnancy for his child.

I sound so cheesy. I know this journal has no form and is rambly and retarded, but it's four thirty am, and I can't sleep. crying ;

So yeah...I'm not sure anyone really reads this thing, so it's okay to ramble to myself, yes? David said it's not a bad thing to type up a journal...so I guess it's okay!

Well, I'm off to bed now.

Night night!