Today has been, let's face it, hellish. I've given up on other girls completely now; none of 'em like me like that, so what's the point? And STILL, even though she broke my heart, even though she's dragged me through hell, even though she's unfaithful to me, I still have feelings for Julia. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me. So, to put a long story short, I spent most of my free time being depressed. *Sigh* What is real love anyway? Whatever it is, it's been avoiding me.
Through all that, I still had a crappy day. Lipping wants a 6-8 page analytical history paper tomorrow! With footnotes even. I don't know how to put footnotes in a paper, let alone what to put in the footnotes! It's insane! My German class is a joke; nothing ever happens in that class. My Biology teacher has cancer and won't be able to teach the class for the rest of the semester (a similar thing happened to me in my first Biology class). And my Precalculus teacher is a sadistic jerk that delights in giving formulas that have to be memorized over night.
And now, we get to Gaia. What do I say about Gaia? When I first broke up with Julia I met this guy (yes, I'm bisexual. Get used to it, or take a hike), and now I'm afraid I might hurt him. He's really nice, and I think he's so depressed he might hurt himself if I add any more hurt on him. But I'll probably never meet him. So I can't keep stringing him along. ARRGH! Sometimes I hate all this drama.
Anyways, I won't be on for very long today, my parents are getting home early. Also: tomorrow may be the last time I get on Gaia for the next two weeks, so don't be surprised if none of you see me.
Woefully Yours,
Phoenix
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