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Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up these defences, you build up a whole suit of armor so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person... no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...

...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you from the inside-out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like "Maybbe we should just be friends" turns into a glass splinter working its way towards your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagiantion. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain... I hate love.