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I blame things on other people when it is I who should be blamed.

Everybody has a dark side but mine takes hold of me and I go out of control.

If I remove my mask then I will show my true self but I will be vulnerable like everyone else.

I know other people are hurt and has their own thoughts but these are mine.

I know things are my fault but truth is, sometimes I don't even know what I'm doing.

If I don't take control one day I'm going to destroy myself.

I heard the saying things happen for a reason but is it really just a saying? Or is it something more.

For me to take control is to forgive myself before anyone else can.

I block myself out of my mind and emotions which will make me weak.

Will I ever be the same?
Who is me?
Who am I?

I hate people for what they have and I don't.

There is always happiness but it will eventually fade. Nothing ever stays the same.

I take whatever happiness I can and save it for what is to come.

Sometimes I fight everyday. I cannot run or it will over come me. I have to stay and fight. There are days where I will lose but I will always get up.