So i've been really pissed lately, but I've finally got it down on paper. so here it is, in all i'ts ungrammared glory.
Let’s add a new word to the dictionary. That word is “You”. “You” who makes me wonder. Are you real? Where is the guilt? Where is your pain? Why, oh why, am I your façade? For how long have you been hiding behind others? Protecting yourself from the wrath that isn’t there? Taking that absent wrath unleashing it on me? It makes me ask, what has this world come too? Where no one thinks for themselves and hurts anyone who does.
It’s a gift really. my being able to put up with you without a string of curses and petty retaliation. But maybe it’s that I know that I would only make it worse. Maybe I want to believe myself when I say that you’re not worth it. when I act strong. trying to shut out your mocking face.
I’m not so strong as I try to be. Far from it. Even I crumble, eventually breaking. Just how far are you willing to go for someone who has never done a thing to you?
You act as if making fun of other is who you are and maybe it is. and if that’s the case then you live a truly sad existence.
but then again, I’m back at the question are you real?
Arishy · Sat Oct 04, 2008 @ 05:32am · 3 Comments |