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i wonder what would of happen if my mom didnt get in the way
here a story...some of u people know..my dad try to child abuse me..so im going to make up a story of what could of happen..if my dad would of..T.T...dont be sad...be thankfull that im still here....*even thou i dont want to be*
btw people...i love making up stories..cuz sometimes that what i wish would happen to me..in real life..................................
it was time for me to get up......my mom left our family cuz she couldnt take my dad anymore.....i wanted to go with her so bad..but all she told me was that someday..she would come back for me.....this was back when i was 5 years old....i had a lot happen but now im 15...im skinny...and ..well..i have burse on my body..from over the summer..my dad has never stop hitting me.....my mom try to protect me..but wasnt strong enough....so i lay here in my bed hoping...that school will come...so i can get away from him....i open my eyes and get up...i lift up my shirt as always and look....the burse on my tummy.....its all black..i thought it was supose to be purple ..but its black.....my dad thinks its funny...ever night he comes home drunk...and hits me like always.....sometimes..blood comes out of my mouth....i wish my dad loved me...but ..i have never heard him say that to me.....i always get blame for everything...i never get any chances.......sometimes i wish i was never born....i ask god...why..why do this to me..what did i ever do...T.T...its now six in the morning...im getting ready.... i quickly go out the door..and wait for the bus...it comes and i get on.....im at school..waiting for everyone to get off then i get off.. and go inside...i wear a sweater and jeans as always....i never wear anything else.....scared that my burses will show......i head in...no one talks to me as ussally...^^ ..thank god.....but there this one girl i know ...i met her in 7th grade never went over to her house thou...my dad wont let me....he afraid that ill tell them...but i wouldnt...im too scared that he will fine me and kill me T.T....she comes up to me and askes me why i didnt call her...i tell her cuz i dont have a phone..........yes i have to make up a story and it sucks..i hate lying to people.....i go to lunch...and there stands a guy that i like..but im too afraid to talk to..afraid that he will notice me....the school day ends and i go home...thankfully my dad not home.....^^ so i get my work done...and go into the woods....where i feel safe....i start hitting a tree..some day ill be strong enough to hit my dad and say back off....but will i even be alive then o.O.....i have a knife too..but i dont want to use it ...so i keep it at home just in case....i hit the tree more.....hoping that im strong enough to break the bark off but im not.......i go home..my dad still not there...so i get more work done..just so he dont have to ask me about it...maybe this time ill make him proud ...something i wanted to do for ten years..but never got to cuz he kept hitting me and bitching at me....oh well...he gets home later that day and tells me to go to bed so i do what he say and go...over the next couple of days nothing happens till i get to school after the first week...that guy i like talks to me...i look away thou...i keep my head down..hoping he dont notice my bruse eye....he sits next to me and takes me by the hand and say...its ok im here for you...my face went really red...no one has ever told me that .....i just wanted to tell him everything and hug him....feel his warmth..but i didnt....i let him hold my hand thou..it make me feel safe..till he took it away...he got up and left....i grew sad...next period was music and he was in my class ..so we went in it..and then all of the sunden...a person comes in with a gun...and theaten everyone...im so scared that i dont move......he say that he will make a deal with everyone....who ever can beat him ...at fighting will be the one who gets to turn him in...O.o i guess this guy likes to fight........i know im strong ..but i dont want anyone to get hurt..so i raise my hand..and he looks at me and laughs so i say what are u scared that a girl gonna woop your butt...then he said it was on...so we went to the park..i look at him....i was scared....but i knew i had to .......for everyone.....then he said lets make this intresting if i win..i kill everyone.....buhahahah....i was really scared then..what am i going to do..i cant let them down..i ..i cant give up.....so we started fighting but he hit me in my tummy and sent me flying...blood came out of my mouth....i hear screaming.....i get up...and look at him....i look at the guy that i like...he looks at me...and i smile...so i take off my sweater and put up my hair..and everyone gasp and my burse....but i didn't care ...i look him in the eye...and charge at him and starting fighting with more strength...dogging his attacks and hitting him...finally he look at me....i was cover in blood...but i still kept going
(ill write more later)
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