Alright, so I went to Kumoricon 08, an anime convention and had a blast in the later hours. I was the first person inside and was the first to get a badge. I made about 3 great friends, and alot of buddies. I went with my best friend in the whole world, Kerri (aya_161)
I was supposed to go today, but plans changed and I couldn't, and Kerri wouldn't go without me. So...we planned on going the last day but of course I had to go clothes shopping with my mom. Everything is ruined now and neither of us can go, well she might Monday and I feel heart broken and I'm not sure why...
I told her I wamted to go at first, but I actually didn't. This was the first day. She just wanted me to go so badly, I didn't want to disapoint her. And now I have and I feel like s**t...I could seriously cry right now...But I won't. I don't care if no one reads this, I just needed to say it to at least someone...
I still want to go Monday...I think. I can't tell what I'm feeling...I've never really felt so confused, I'm usually so good at telling which emotiuon I'm feeling. Not tonight. Ever since I got into the car to take her home, I've felt like crying and it's because I left behind so many friends and such, and I hate seeing her like how she was. I felt at Home there, at Kumoricon...I can never be my wacky, ditzy, crazy self in the real world without someone telling me to get a life or that I need to grow-up. Well newsflash, not gonna happen. I could do ANYTHING there and people would be happy I was myself, and join in. It was like another world. I know I'm being super dramatic about this, but I really don't care, I just don't. I don't care if you think what I'm saying is stupid, you don't like reading it, then why haven't you left by now...?
Anyways...I just needed to get this down and such...
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 aya_190 · Mon Sep 01, 2008 @ 04:46am · 3 Comments |
