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Why must u continue to haunt me, ur face follows me where ever I go. I can't stop thinking about you. i try thinking about other things but the pain comes right back. I can't escape it, i have no safe haven. My mind is constantly being strained and i can't make the pain go away. I hope that in time it will. But for now there is nothing i can do until it completely does it's worst to me, so that one day these memories won't hurt me and I'll be glad I have them. you taught me how to love and to make love. Right I just need ur support and help. I wish that i could speed up the healing process quicker but my attempts are in vein and it just makes the situation harder. I know ur trying not to show too much compassion cause i may get the wrong idea but i hope that you'll still be there to comfort me. You said that you'd always be there for me and I you. You have done well on that promise. But right now i need my best friend and that best friend is you. So please help me through this. I'm trying my hardest and it doesn't feel like it's working. it might be but I haven't noticed if it has. I want to do so many more things with you, i want to watch movies and laugh together again like we always have, i don't want that to go away. I just want yur love as a friend. I will always be there to comfort you as well. We still need to go to disneyland and other places. We promised that we'd go to Japan. Hopefully we can go together. i'm trying to make friends in japan and trying to learn the language. I want us yto have lots of fun together and I can't wait to be able to do that again with you and be able to control these feelings.