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Must be her imagination,
Because she knows now,
But she doesn't know how
But she knows now,
That she's willing herself to die,

Her heart is beating oh so fast,
She's crying out now,
Asking why it hurts so bad,
She's pleading now,

Make it stop,
And she's hiding behind that door,
That one with the monster on the other side,
The one screaming,
Wanting to tear her apart.

She has her phone,
She prays to something,
But she doesn't know what..
And she dials as fast as she can.

What do you say?
When you push her over the edge?
Making her cry, Making her hurt so bad..
Begging you to stop,
Begging you to leave,
Because she can't hurt you.

But you rip her apart so nicely,
The cuts and tears are clean and precise,

And that door won't lock and she can't hold it shut,
Not anymore,
Her chest hurts so bad,
She falls to the floor,
It's all she can do to press herself,
To that god-forsaken door

And you burst through,
As that phone rings,
As her grief sings,
And she's so scared.
So scared.

If you're only human,
And she knows you're you,
Then why is she so scared..
Because now to her,
You are two.

Twice the power,
And the pain.
Twice to cower,
And the case.

And when the voice connects at the other end,
On that god-forsaken night,
All she can do is cry,
And she looks the monster in the eyes.
And she says, "I'm gonna die"

And she's so scared,
And her tears are so sharp now,
Her chest so tight,
Heart so heavy.
And the phone hangs up,
And the monster becomes one.

And now you're pleading,
Begging her to stay,
Soft and simple,
Nice and sweet.
And everytime she stops crying,
And the pain lets up,
She looks up,
And all she can see is you.

And the tears start coming again.
And in the morning,
Her eyes are still wet..
Her chest still heavy.

But now I feel dead inside.

And for now my heart still beats.

But I'm so scared of you..

So scared,
I'm a little girl again,
And not even my mother can save me.
Because no one can ever really love me.
And all I am is a casuality,
Of love and war,
And mental illness..

You ******** Kill Me..