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I cant tell whats going on with what happening in my life. My fears, my doubts, my self. When one day I knew everything, the next. I feel like Im being riped in to. I see one thing, now I see two. I cant seem to know it all, or which is right. Im blind, Im deaf, I cant talk, nor do I try to think. If things were easey I would know what to do, what to say and how to think. What is it worth to me, this I dont know. Will I chose right? Will I chose worng? What is the right chose? Who is right and who is worng? These are the question I have and no answer for them. I want to cry, I want to cut, I want to lie down and die. I never once in my life felt the way that I do now. I dont know how to deal with it. An dont know where to go with them. I bleed sadness, I drool despear, I see no hope. I feel only cold. My mind was once blank, and now its filled with images of a life I do not know. I think of it, I want it, but what about it? Is this my true life? I had one thought, now I have two. Is there an end to my pain, and suffering. Will someone jump out of the shadows and heal what is broken, or will they stomp it to dust and leave me withering in the cold. Waiting for death to pick me up and drag me down below? For this I dont know, nor can I know what will happen. Just wish the glass was half full. That the water was clear. That there was a candle pointing me the way.