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I only wish I could take it all back
To the days of yesterday
When you and I were still but just friends
Why must this happen, this feeling deep inside
It's not what you think, only hurt and remorse
Tell me what did I do wrong
What did I do to diserve this

Way inside, I know the answer
But I'm too much of a coward to take it in and accept it
I have to learn not to hold on much longer
And let you go
Let it all go now

I keep on telling myself that I'm over anything and everything
But I know, and I bet you do too
I'm lying to myself, telling me this

Should've learned the 1st time, with the friends I lost and found
So why do I not and do it all over again
Blaming love for this isn't right
We all know who's at fault

So I'm not asking you to return it
These feelings I shouldn't have
I can't cry over small deals as this
Must grow strong, not shieldingly weak
Just asking for forgiveness and things to go back

But I know deep inside that it's a fool's wish
And you will never know
No one will ever know
As I cry my heart out
For the last time

In the middle of the night
I can't but I have to
Let you go and move on
Shouldn't stop you anymore
After all the times I've hurt you
I only wish you good with a sense of regret
For what can never be

I need to say this just this one last time
For the fool I've always secretly've been
Although you won't ever find this out
And I'll never let it show

Put the past behind me
Let the pain slowly reside
No one can ever know
What's behind these poor girl's eyes

Say goodbye, to the wilted roses called my love, for you.

Well there's some confusion, sadness, and/or madness for you all. Wow this is my longest entry yet... eek Hmm... stare Look! A domo! arrow domokun

And that's that. For an old flame. redface But seriously, I got to move on. mad And on a last note: for the people who know me in real life, you don't know this guy. Period. And if you're thinking of someone right now, it ain't him either, because like I said before, you don't know him. LOL. mrgreen

Posted at exactly 1:30 am. (Yeah I know, I'm supposed to asleep now... whee )