So the dark forces raping
my mind are now gone.
Replacing it however,
is a sense of loss, and
subtle emptiness.
I learned a particular bit of
information that startled
and pleased me to a vast degree.
However, after pondering that
information, I realized that
I had lost feelings I had held
for a long time.
At that moment I realized
that my window of oppertunity
had long since passed,
if it actually existed at all.
I came to the realization that
those feelings were now useless.
There was no point.
Before I knew what I knew,
there was a shred of hope.
A very pale, small, but still
existant, shred of hope.
Now there is no longer one there.
Thus, the feelings are a dead weight.
As with other dead weight, I dropped it.
Looking back, this all spawned from god damn courage.
If I was a panzy I could have easily
avoided this whole situation.
If I would have never opened my mouth
upon the request, I would still be left
with some hope.
Now all I am left with is an
emptiness, some guilt, a feeling
that I lost something I had
and the idea that things never
turn out well for me even when I try...
Sand_Coffin Community Member 
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