Annorexia is back. Suprising? dunno. At the moment though I'm hating myself. Kristin is alright, but *shrug* I get bored easily. That's not ment to sound cruel or horrible but it's the truth. I'm at the office at the moment. Summer is almost over. School starts the 6th. Once again, I've pushed everyone away. Sorry, luvs. I just don't get close to people. It turns out badily. James wants to get back together, it isn't happening. I hate who I am with him, and I hate who I am right now. I may be leaving gaia. I never come anymore and no longer care. Puru's left and it sucks. She was mostly the only reason I stayed. I'm getting a new computer soon. Maybe I'll come then. But really, lets face it. FFW is dead. I've tried to keep it alive but no one seems to care enough to be there all the time, we all have lives though, who's to expect us to spend every second there? I don't. I'm no longer addicted to gaia and could go for a very long time without it. SillyGoth has lost it's appeal. All of my poetry is in the 'Good Stuff' section and I think maybe it's about time I get my a** out of the spotlight and let someone else take my place. I'm quite depressed at the moment. Really want to cut, yes, I'm a fricken emo kid at the moment. I feel just as well without eating, just a tiny bit more hollow, like I'm not enough of that. Honestly, if I died tomarrow, I would care less. Maybe going back to school is what I need? Maybe not. Maybe this vacation will be uplifting. All I know is that I feel misrible and withdrawn and this life seems so cliched and tired and dull. Hopefully Show Choir will pep me up, or I'll get hit my a car. Eather one will be good xp Maybe I'll write when I get my new computer. Later everyone.
Have a good one.
 angel08 · Wed Aug 24, 2005 @ 03:03pm · 1 Comments |
