I'm the biggest hypocrite of them all...
And I'm more than quite aware of it.
Life in general has just been sort of ugh~ lately.
I keep sort of twirling my life here with reality and it's all too silly.
But it's helped me I think.
You all have helped me. :]
...and some of you have helped me alot x] <3
And so thankyou.
I've gotten into so many fights lately xP even got into one this morning with my mum...I feel like they expect me to be an adult. To act like and talk like and think like an adult. But they need to realize that I'm 17 not 37. xP
And it isn't just at the office, it's everyday
and then they go ahead and treat and control me like I'm 17.
Yesterdaay I got in a fight with one of my best friends though, Caroline.
She said that I needed to keep my opinions to myself because they upset her, because she doesn't agree with them. That it wasn't fair for me not to want to change for her and that that's just how it works.
Now...I can understand where sometimes my opinions may contradict hers and she may not be the happiest I feel a certain way, but what did she want me to do then? Just lie to her and act fake and this and that? Because otherwise I'd just have to sit there with my mouth shut and nodd since everything I say is my opinion for the most part at least.
She told me that she just wanted me to "revise" or "monitor" my opinions. Because she never feels good enough for me, or up to my standards because we have different opinions, and therefore different actions. So I must judge her for not being like me.
I told her that the only way I would judge her if she followed my opinions as guidelines for her life. That I wanted to influnce her, and not control her with my opinionatedness, because if she were living her life for me, rather than herself, and based on my opinions and views rather than her own, then I'd be disappointed. "Don't ever live for someone else, it's your life and you're the one who is going to have to live with yourself at the end of the day."
Why don't I follow my own advice?
xP; I certainly don't think it's bad advice.
Maybe I could be a phycologist? Live in Chicago in a cute little townhouse and just have one car?
I think that'd make me happy.
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 angel08 · Mon Jun 25, 2007 @ 05:01pm · 0 Comments |
