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its all too much to take anymore
i run, i fall, i hit the floor

i try, i push, but i never succeed
its all this misery that i dont need

i hate pushing myself just to fail
they say, " well honey, only time can tell."

time is a liar, it tells me NOTHING.
please, somebody, tell me something....

will i ever win and hold my head high
or should i just bid everyone goodbye

all this sitting and waiting and hoping for good
all the hurt that no one understood

im watching the distance for something new
but everything happy has bid me adieu

why should i sit with all my excuses
i have nothing, i have no uses

nothing i do is ever right
people tell me this every night

time has its grip and it wont let me go
why it wont, i guess i dont know

i have no meaning, im always rejected
i stand in my loneliness looking dejected

i cant force that smile, not one more time
everything swirls around in my mind

why im not good, why im not great
why my excuses are just too late

put me through fire then, i dont even care
throw me down, take me anywhere

im overly stressed and im over the edge,
wake up tomorrow, you'll find me dead

not in this misery, not in this place
just lying there in sweet disgrace