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Of Course But Why?
I grind my teeth at night but is it becuase I am stressed out or frustrated that my dreams are not reality?
I have cruel thoughts but I realize they are cruel, does that make me a horrilbe person?
I can empathize with people but can they empathize with me?
Am I heavy but am I the only one that is starving for perfection?
I love to watch anime but why does it make me feel so ugly?
Imitation is a form of flattery but why do my wrists hurt?
I wear glasses so how can I see the world so clearly or can I?
My greatest joy in life is music so why are my voice and hearing fading?
I love to see the world as it is but why is my vision blured?
I want to escape but why can't I run?
I am all alone so why hasn't anyone come to save me?
I try to be happy but why am I always crying?






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Kricka
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commentCommented on: Tue May 20, 2008 @ 04:33am
Well, maybe--

Grinding your teeth actually has nothing to do with your nightly subconscious activity--
Because you see your thoughts as cruel means you're not cruel yourself; cruelty is believing that wrong thoughts are right; you're troubled, which is fixable--
Can they? It's all relative, empathy. You may think you empathize with them, but what are they keeping out of sight? What are you keeping out of sight?--
Because our society's love of thin and sleek has mixed with your growing view that what you need is love, and the result is the idea that thin, sleek, and beautiful will get you love--
Are you perhaps a bit ashamed of something considered nerdy, or is it that you feel shame for doing something time-consuming during such a busy time?--
Your wrists had better not be hurting because you cut them hun or I'll file down your nails, remove all sharp objects from your environment, and then bind your hands.--
Physical sight differes greatly from emotional/intellectual sight; how intuitive do you prize yourself to be?--
Are they literally fading, or do you mean your symbolic voice and hearing, as in your presence and perception?--
That depends on what it's blurred by; tears? Negative outlooks? Self-loathing?--
What holds you in place? Yourself or another force? Can it be removed? Do you really want to run? Do you need to?--
Who exactly are you waiting for? What are the people around you not offering or providing that's not enough? Answer and seek.--
I think you need to answer the other questions in order to understand the answer to your last question.


commentCommented on: Wed May 21, 2008 @ 08:02am
I grind my teeth at night but is it becuase I am stressed out or frustrated that my dreams are not reality? Stress causes me to girnd my teeth or so the dentist said.
I have cruel thoughts but I realize they are cruel, does that make me a horrilbe person? I think I am
I can empathize with people but can they empathize with me? I only know the signs of pain and detatchement because I know I exhibit them but others seems to not notice.
Am I heavy but am I the only one that is starving for perfection? Starving for perfection is actually another term used when talking about anorexia.
I love to watch anime but why does it make me feel so ugly? They are perfection and I cna never have that.
Imitation is a form of flattery but why do my wrists hurt? Trends and fades only hurt you becuase you are sonforming to things you don't believe is so you can be "cool"
I wear glasses so how can I see the world so clearly or can I? I can see the world on a bigger scale my life seems so insignificant and my worries and problems are nothing compared to the people that have to hike 3 miles just for fresh water.
My greatest joy in life is music so why are my voice and hearing fading? I am losing my hearing and my voice is not as strong as it used to be since my tonsal sergury.
I love to see the world as it is but why is my vision blured? The U.S filter many things from us and they censor public television among other things.
I want to escape but why can't I run? I feel as if I am slowly drowning. I want to escape this mind set of mt being worthless but I can't.
I am all alone so why hasn't anyone come to save me? In the movies and stories there is always a certain point in it when the person is at the edge of sanity and they are saved but I already jumped and no one caught me.
I try to be happy but why am I always crying? I hate myself.



Dark Moon Princess
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Dark Moon Princess
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commentCommented on: Wed May 21, 2008 @ 08:11am
believing that wrong thoughts are right; you're troubled, which is fixable--
Can they? It's all relative, empathy. You may think you empathize with them, but what are they keeping out of sight? You get a sad distant stare when you are thinking about your relationship with him. I knew the epilouge did not go over as you wanted it to be the look on your face before you explained what happened. When you are thinking about it you often do not make eye contact with me. If I ask you a question you hesitate longer when you are thinking about him. You stand a different way when you are nervous or angery or sad or embarrased. What are you keeping out of sight?-- Eveything.
Are you perhaps a bit ashamed of something considered nerdy, or is it that you feel shame for doing something time-consuming during such a busy time?-- No
Your wrists had better not be hurting because you cut them hun or I'll file down your nails, remove all sharp objects from your environment, and then bind your hands.-- It was only one time and it didn't go very deep.
Physical sight differes greatly from emotional/intellectual sight; how intuitive do you prize yourself to be?-- No very.
Are they literally fading, or do you mean your symbolic voice and hearing, as in your presence and perception?-- literally.
That depends on what it's blurred by; tears? Yes. Negative outlooks? Yes. Self-loathing?-- Yes.
What holds you in place? Music. Yourself or another force? everthing I come into contact with. Can it be removed? Only if I take it out myself. Do you really want to run? Yes, I hate myself. Do you need to?-- I hate myself
Who exactly are you waiting for? A man to have genuine interest in me as a person and perhaps them even be physically attracted to me. What are the people around you not offering or providing that's not enough? They can't help me with the things that I need. Answer and seek.--
I think you need to answer the other questions in order to understand the answer to your last question.


commentCommented on: Wed Jun 11, 2008 @ 09:57am
I suddenly have a strong yearning to chew on your ear.



Blue Assassin166
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Dark Moon Princess
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commentCommented on: Thu Jun 19, 2008 @ 10:36am
Is chewing on my ear a good thing? 0.o


commentCommented on: Sat Jun 21, 2008 @ 11:14am
Honestly I have no idea.



Blue Assassin166
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