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A lonely happy birthday
(I know this isnt my best but hey...it was what I was feeling at the time..)


Im sure I may have asked for material things
And, what anyone said to me was nothing

Sitting here by the computer moniter,
I can see....

I know Im not that good at expressing what I feel with words
And I know now that, it meant the world
..that you loved me
..that you at leat acknologed me

All I have to do is smile,
..Smile through the good and the bad
...like wearing a mask
But what about my heart?
..What about my heart?
Could this tear it apart?

When you said "Happy Birthday" to me,
I could tell, it was forced, you were'nt happy
Deep in me I felt that someone told you to
..It was like you never said a word

With this lonely birthday, I need to smile
..Smile through the great
..and smile through the worst

Now, Im worried about my heart
My isolated heart

I tell my self over and over again
..As Im laying in my bed
That I can handle it

And, that I'll be fine
And I wont cry
I cannot allow myself...

I close my eyes
..I dont want to die,
..of this saddness

This lonelu happy birthday shouldnt bring me down...
So all I can do is smile even for a while

Im starting to think now, that Im wasting my time
Wearing a mask of pain

All I wanted from you was a simple
........."Happy Birthday"..........
PostPosted by: sakura kitty-cat Thu Apr 17, 2008 @ 03:28am



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Conejita-Azul
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commentCommented on: Thu Apr 17, 2008 @ 03:38am
im sorry i couldnt go to your birthday onee-chan!!! crying *hugs*


commentCommented on: Thu Apr 17, 2008 @ 03:52am
Dont worry ^_^ It isnt about you. Its about the guy I like hehe



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commentCommented on: Thu Apr 17, 2008 @ 03:58am
oh that dude! hes going to pay scream very bad xp attack domo! domokun domokun domokun


commentCommented on: Thu Apr 17, 2008 @ 04:36am
No no! Dont do that! hehe Its all good now ^_^



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commentCommented on: Thu Apr 17, 2008 @ 04:58am
i'm sorry melody sad


commentCommented on: Fri Apr 18, 2008 @ 02:37am
O.O!! omg the present hurteded you!!!! grr!! me nu likey present!
**atackkk!!!***** >,<
is he really really making you happy yo keep making poems about isolation XC!!!!
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commentCommented on: Fri Apr 18, 2008 @ 05:05am
Its ok though ^_^


commentCommented on: Fri Apr 18, 2008 @ 07:22pm
-gives melody a hug- who hurt you want me to bite there head off for you

i hope i didn't hurt you melody i would never do that to u because i-i-i lov eek sweatdrop



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commentCommented on: Sat Apr 19, 2008 @ 01:16am
William ^_^


commentCommented on: Sat Apr 19, 2008 @ 01:25am
eek redface
did i just say i lov u out loud melody

-blushes- um uh



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commentCommented on: Sat Apr 19, 2008 @ 01:34am
*giggles*


commentCommented on: Sat Apr 19, 2008 @ 02:19am
-smiles then kisses you - i love you melody i know your the one the one to break the spell heart



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commentCommented on: Sat Apr 19, 2008 @ 03:55am
Of course. I can break anything ^_^


commentCommented on: Sat Apr 19, 2008 @ 04:04am
-laughts- ^_^



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commentCommented on: Sat Apr 19, 2008 @ 04:09am
Heh I am the best ^_^


commentCommented on: Sat Apr 19, 2008 @ 04:30am
-nods- yes indee you are melody


-hugs her-
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commentCommented on: Sat Apr 19, 2008 @ 10:01pm
melody why did you have a sad b-day who hurt you stressed


commentCommented on: Sun Apr 20, 2008 @ 02:44am
It doesnt matter everythings all better now ^_^



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commentCommented on: Mon Apr 21, 2008 @ 03:23am
i'm glade melody heart


commentCommented on: Mon Apr 21, 2008 @ 03:49am
heh..yeah



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commentCommented on: Mon Apr 21, 2008 @ 06:17pm
-kisses her cheek- you know you can always talk to me when something is wrong i'm a good listoner biggrin


commentCommented on: Wed Apr 23, 2008 @ 02:53am
melody



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commentCommented on: Wed Apr 23, 2008 @ 04:36am
Yes?


commentCommented on: Wed Apr 23, 2008 @ 07:37pm
how r u my darling

i know u liked our kiss u kissed me back biggrin heart

-picks her up and spins her around- sadly it won't break the spell sad



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commentCommented on: Wed Apr 23, 2008 @ 11:57pm
*only smiles*


commentCommented on: Thu Apr 24, 2008 @ 01:43am
-smiles back at her- your not going to tell me r u melody stare



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commentCommented on: Fri Apr 25, 2008 @ 03:36am
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commentCommented on: Sat Apr 26, 2008 @ 07:40pm
melody



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commentCommented on: Sun Apr 27, 2008 @ 01:12am
what?


commentCommented on: Sun Apr 27, 2008 @ 03:38am
how r u hows your mother feeling sad



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