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Spring is here! Spring is here! Finally the snow has melted, I may shed my winter coat and my sweater and embrace the sun's rays once more.
The land has been transformed from a cold icy waste land into a warmer land of beauty of and dead grass and rotting animal flesh (winter kept it all refrigerated wink ) But I guess one must wake up and smell the roses eventually and they must realize that spring is not perfect stare . And even though it may be teaming with life, it smells like death (death left over from winter maybe but now you can smell it). But otherwise it is a great feeling.
It is also a great feeling knowing that I can walk down my driveway and not slip on the ice.
There are 43 school days left in the school year, and I have just recently found out that I cannot type (random).
I have also found out that I have a right to feel the way I do, and that I need to acknowledge my feelings and not just vent through angry letters. And I have also learned that there are people who care about my feelings. I know that they have cared about me before, but it is very nice to hear them say it.
Occasionally I have problems with my self esteem and have issues with envy. My brother is disabled, and naturally I get put in the shadow, even by the families counselor (he is provided by the waiver) who obsesses over him.
At school I tend to feel the same way. Quiet girl is almost always overshadowed by everyone. But I said it before and I will say it again, it's no ones fault! It's just the way I am, I'm just more naturally assertive with written/typed words then with spoken words.
"As I've often said, listen, I'm still here. They've driven a stake through my heart, shot me with a silver bullet, and I'm still around."
-Jamie Farr- |
