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what I feel:
What I feel right now....I feel like I don't deserve anything and that I should be run down by a car..

why I feel this:
I don't really know why I feel like this....for some reason I just do

what I'm gonna do:
Nothing....I can never do anything to make myself feel better.....all I can do is just sit and wait to feel better because something else happened or something else went wrong

what I should do:
I should go take a couple of tylonal and get off the comp....but I'm not gonna

what else I'm feeling:
I don't mean anything to anybody that I've met in my life and that my friend secretly hate me and wish that I wasn't around them anymore.

why don't I do something about it?:
I'm incapable of doing something cause there is always the risk that I will do something stupid or possibly risk my own life trying to fix it or do what seems right in my head