if you'd just realize what i just realized...
i dont know what is true and false anymore. it seems like everything is just so messed up. i have my spokesmen talking for me, my friend in the dark, and how it all comes together is the worse part of it all. not knowing what to say, or how to say it. i guess im just trying to run away. will you run with me?
thoughts just flood my mind like teardrop puddles on the ground. everything is just so complicated. i would explain, but that would just make it more comfusing.
i dont want to hurt anyones feelings, but i guess it has to happen somewhere. i just wish i could say sorry and this could all be forgotten. the way she feels now is because of me. if i had just kept my mouth shut. if i had just thought before i used my mouth.
but i did think. i knew exactly what i was going to say. i had a feeling it would all come down to this. not the part of hurting her, but the good part. for me at least. but i know in my actions of selfishness i hurt her. but not on purpose.
wow. i really messed up. but i think its all going to work out for the best. shes not mad, i dont think. im just fine thanks.
and for the reason this happened, person #1 i am ignoring, and for person #2, all is going to work out for the best. i hope.
i might write more on this later, but as for now, we'll just see what the future brings!!
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Smartlessly Brilliant · Tue Apr 01, 2008 @ 10:58pm · 1 Comments |