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I cannot even find the words to show how elated I am for everyone that got their account back, for I know each and every one of you were innocent victims caught in the undertow ~ as am I, seems as tho Gaia has users to overlook though.
I wanted to send out a huuuuuuuuuuuuuugggeee thank you to everyone who band together and didn't silence their voices - to some of the most wonderful people I've met simply because of this, your patience and help and kind words and protests and willfulness.. thank you.


FJ: you feeling good today mami?
Me: not currently
FJ: why is that ?
FJ: I feel good to see you at least
Me: i dunno, watching too much zeitgeist and vchip and gay bashing and signing on gaia only to find yet another good friend got his account back [which is splendid, for he had almost 2-3 katanas on there] but i am starting to feel like i am in a very big room that was full of people in the same situation except the room is suddenly emptying and i'm looking around at discouraged faces i don't recognize trying to find a corner, some warmth, no friends, just encouragement, be strong, carry on, forget roxy existed, tape off another piece of the past
FJ: what did roxy have? Lots of items?
Me: No, she had barely anything, but that is not what counts. I had friends there and it wouldn't be the same ever and it isn't the same still. It's like waiting for a number on a ticket stub in your hand that you know is never going to be called upon, the black sheep, the one who didnt try hard enough who didnt give it their all who made the wrong decisions despite that she is completely innocent
Me: I just must be emotional today..
FJ: you are such a poet, muah
FJ: in the eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeend.
Me: nothing else matters?
FJ: it doesn't even matter*
FJ: I tried so hard and got so far , and in the end it doesn't even matter. I fought so hard to lose it all ... in the end , it doesn't even matter
Me: then why do i feel so ********' ********' ******** over it
Me: ?
FJ: in the end is not even gonna matter ... is just a moment's thing. Is just a game.


Right??....
R.I.P. Roxy...
I might be leaving Gaia soon so these words needed to be 'etched in stone' to everyone who still has hope..