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Have you ever noticed that someone likes you...But when you try to reach out to them and tell them that you like them back, they push you away.
Now when this happens you feel like, "Sure he likes me, but he totally hates me..." Which confuses not only your mind but your heart as well. And to confuse ones mind and heart is a horrible thing...

Anyway, today I was speaking with a close friend after being brushed off by the guy I like. I asked my friend, "Do you think it is physically possible to like someone but hate them at the same time?" My favorite thing about this friend is that he thinks about everything you ask him. He ended up saying, "Yes, I do think its possible, but what brought on that question?" I then told him about the guy I like, Jace. I was talking with another friend on the phone and she asked for Jace's number. And I stupidly gave it to her. (Said number shall not be put up online, for Jace's safety) I was like, "I can't believe I'm doing this, but his number is _______ " After I told her his number she said, "Alright hang on for a second." I yelled at her to not call him, but it was too late, she had put us on three-way. I was ready to kill her. Jace answered his phone and was like, "Hello?" I said "Hey Jace...Uh, I'm sorry about this, but I accidentally told my friend your number and she called you and stuff, I'm sorry." He said, "Asia? Asia I'm hanging up now" Asia is his sister. I told him, "No Jace wait!" Too late he hung up. I mad my friend call him back and apologize.
After my friend had called him back I waited a while then myself called him back. I dialled his number and waited. "Hello?" I sighed lightly, "Hey Jace, uh, this is Cassidy, yeah hey." He said hey back, I said, "I'm sorry about my friend, she asked me for your number then I accidentally told her and she called you and put us on three-way and....I'm sorry." He said, "Yeah, I know your friend told me." I said, "Yeah, I made her call and apologize to you." There was a bit of a pause and he said, "Yeah...So, bye then." I said bye and hung up I looked at the phone we had talked for a full minute.
It wasn't the first time that had happened, I had called him before and we spoke for 3 minutes and half of that was long awkward pauses. The only time we had actually spoken was when he called at ask me to go to see a movie with him. Of course my Mom said I couldn't go. So that time we spoke for 5 minutes, more then half of that was me talking to my Mom. I know he likes me and all, but he keeps brushing me off when I call him...Its starting to annoy me, I don't know what to do....