I think I'm a jealous person.... no, I don't think I'am, I KNOW I'am. I try hard not to be though but it's useless. I blame the horoscope for saying I'am a jealous person.... ah who am I kiddin? Horoscopes don't determine who you are. Anyway, I ask myself why I'am like that.... maybe it has something to do with me being a very selfish person. I've been raised as a single kid so it's only natural... I want everything for myself!
In a less childish manner... maybe I'm just too overprotective... WAY overprotective. I like to defend, protect... but all I'm doing is pushing ( ) away. Hm, maybe I'm a masochist as well.
Then again, why am I antagonizing myself? Everyone is a bit jealous. Some show it more than others and I'm one of them. It's so ironic how I vow to protect and without even realizing, IM the cause of the problem. Isn't there someway my feelings or my way of being won't hurt others? Well, not like it matters anymore.
Jealousy can be both a good and bad thing, all in balance. I think it's the way you express it that determines wether its good or bad. I just show it in a bad way...
 Zero Fieran · Tue Feb 19, 2008 @ 11:28pm · 3 Comments |
