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I sigh for many things today.

I sigh for my lost [permanantly or not, I don't know] neopets account that I was so upset about earlier.

I sigh for the fact that I have had three days to work on a story I'm writing and I haven't been at all inspired. Maybe I'm inspired by life, and I've been kind of taking a break from it recently.

I sigh because I don't know what to write about in my journal today, so I am just writing different things that are making me sigh. How bizarrely lame is that? I don' t think anyone who is reading my journal wants to know what makes me sigh. I mean, they could just be content thinking that I am happy [but a little ticked], but no, I had to ruin that for them. Sorry about that.

I sigh because whoever is making the Twilight movie cast a Carlisle who is old. He isn't SUPPOSED to be old, even if he is more than 600 years old. Okay...he is supposed to be old, but he isn't supposed to LOOK old. That is the Reader's Digest version of my previous Carlisle rant.

I sigh because I am slightly busy and I really shouldn't be. But that's okay. I'll get over it.

I sigh because I read the first two chapters of MR4 [I am also a huge Maximum Ride fan] and they are...saddening. But not in a "Holy-cow-James-Patterson must-have-been-on-drugs-when-he-wrote-it" sort of way. It was meant to be sad. It was meant to make me cry, and it almost succeeded except for the fact that I was around PEOPLE when I read it.

I hate crying around people. Especially if something really bad happened to you or to a character in a book. The first one is awful because people ALWAYS ask what's wrong and then you have to tell them and then it is just terrible because that makes you me cry even harder.

[My face gets all red and unpleasent when I cry too, which I hate. I wish I could be like one of those actresses who look beautiful even when they cry...]

The second one is bad too [something bad happening in a book] because you can't cry to anyone who isn't reading the book because a conversation [let's make it about something that would make me cry (that isn't Twilight, MR, or Harry Potter] would go:

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Me: "OH MY GOSH! *sobs* Little Ann just died! NOOO!"
Person who lives under a rock: "*looks at you strangely* Who's Little Ann?"
Me: "*gapes* Are you insane?!"
Person who lives under a rock: "Who's Little Ann?"
Me: *cries harder this time because they don't understand*

Yeah. I probably just ruined Where the Red Fern Grows for anyone who hasn't read it yet. Sorry about that. That was another book that made me cry the first two times I read it. Both of the movies just didn't do it for me. Maybe because they couldn't get a real Redbone coonhound to do what Dan actually did.

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Well, that is all I have to write today. I did send in those poems that I said I would. So, hooray for me...a little bit at least.

Twilight