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"There were woods.. I couldn't see anything 5 feet infront of me, yet I could see this woman. She looked like me.. but older. Much older. I knew of her age.. but she looked nothing of it. She was 43.. but she looked 30. I called out to her.. I called her mama. She walked closer to me.. so close that I could see her more clearly. She smiled at me and I smiled back, overwhelmed with happiness. I hugged her and she touched my face. It felt wet and cold. I touched my face and saw only blood. Then I looked and saw she had blood on her hands. I asked her what happened, but then she turned into a wolf and right when she jumped at me I awoke. What does this mean?"
"I don't know. You don't have a mother, child," The man told me. "Then how do I exist?"
"Do you exist?"
"What are you talking about? Yes I exist!" I was getting angrier at him. How could he be so stupid? He must be stupid to not have a name. "And why don't you have a name?" The man gave me a cold look. "I just don't have one. You may call me Master.." "Master... W-what?"
"I will be teaching you everything about yourself.. its only fitting that you call me Master," He snarled. The look scared me again to do what he said. "Okay.. Master. But don't you have at least a last name or something?" I asked. "Yes.. its Kichato." I smiled, " Master Kichato. What is my last name?"
"Your last name it Hinaro-Iz," He smiled at me. "Inoya Hinaro-Iz. Thats a nice name!" My voice echoed as I squeled the last of the sentence. It startled me. We were in a dark cold cave with only a fire for a night-light. Strangly I liked it.. the darkness.. the coldness.. I suddenly wanted meat.. I was hungry I couldn't really help it. I didn't want any ordaniry meat.. I wanted it raw.. and bloody. I wanted to fight these urges, but I could tell that Master Kichato could tell from the look he saw on my face. "You want food?" He asked me gently. "Yes.."
"What kind of food?" I suddenly felt sick. I didn't feel right saying I wanted blood.. I mean what kind of person would want blood? Or even raw meat. I hesitated. "Its okay.. you feel terrible for what you are yearning for, I know. Well I wouldn't say I know.. I've been having the craving since birth, but youre not the first to fall into my hands," He patted my head and smiled. "I'm not a dog.." I looked away from him. "Of course not.. and this isn't a curse! Its a.. how do you say it.. a beautiful thing, my child. You are able to do things others cannot, but that doesn't mean you can show everyone your abilitys. You must hide it... you never know how jealous people can get."
"Jealous?"
"Yes.. jealous. They're jealous that they don't have what you have.. all the powers and how you can control anything. They want it.. they want to be in control. But they can't so they try to ruin you. Therefore, you mustn't tell a word of anything to anybody. do you understand, my child?"
"Yes.."
Control? Powers? What is this physco talking about? I don't get it! What do I have? What am I doing? I don't feel anything! Except hunger.. and thirst.. what does this all mean! I hate it!
Suddenly Master Kichato took a black leather bag from behind him and took out a bloody slab of meat. My mouth watered at the sight. He then took out a knife and cut a little peice. He handed it to me and urged me to eat. What is this? Such a small peice could never fill my stomach. Oh well.. its better than nothing. I took it and put the peice in my mouth. It was so juicy and cool. And the chewing made my teeth feel so much better. As I swallowed I had a little pain in my neck. I touched it and felt holes. "What is this, Master?" I asked touching it. "Bites."
"From what? A Vampyer? Wasn't that a few years ago?"
"Yes.. but when you were in your sleep.. they wouldn't heal.. because you didn't eat. So as you eat you will feel pain.. that means its healing. I can already see it disapating, my child," I smiled and asked for more meat. He gave it to me and I began to eat. The pain slowley went away and I felt so much better and so much fuller.

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"This is the last step of the aging process. Show me everything you've learned!" I heard my Master yell to me. I barelly heard him.. I could only hear my instincts. They told me to jump at it.. but I didn't want to. It was a huge pain.. not a physical pain.. or was it? But how could I feel so much pain.. in my heart? For such a beast? This wolf? What is it truelly? Why does it make me hurt? I don't want to harm it. For 4 years of training you would think that I could kill it with one stare. I didn't want to harm it.. or is it that I couldn't? "What are you waiting for? Kill her!" ~*Her? What does mean her? Its a she? She.. s-shes the one in my dreams.. this wounded animal.. down.. hurt and bleeding. What do I have against her? Nothing at all.. but my killer instincts that have been fed to me through meat and tough fighting. This is meaningless! Pointless! I will not fight someone of whom I do not want to hurt.. but I already have. How could I be so foul? So.. cruel to such a gental creature at heart?*~ Suddenly as I thought these thoughts she came at me with such vilocity I couldn't react. She wounded me badley. I was in pain, but I managed to get her from atop me. I kicked her in the head forcefully to where she squeled so loud that I had to cover my ears. The screams burned my ears and scared my inner being. She then ran far into the forrest.

"What was that? You were supposed to kill her you fool!" Master Kichato snipped at me. I was in fear. I shakenly spoke back to him, "I don't know.. I didn't want to attack her.. how though? Does she have powers, too?" I asked feeling foolish of the question. ~*Idiot.. What a childish question.. I no I am not supposed to talk like that.. but it was a run of the mill normal question was it not?