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Entry 1 - 1-07-2008
Alright, I am done dealing with this. My friend moved away last year and I CAN'T GET HIM THE HECK OUT OF MY MIND! I guess it's sort of a bad thing.... He looks just like Josh Hutcherson but he has brown eyes. I swear to gawd they could pull off as twins. ANYWAYS, his name is Drew, and if he happens to play this website, and if he happens to be reading this, then, just... IDK, just... Tell me. He knows who he is...

Entry 2 - 2-26-2008
So, he cut his hair and has a deeper voice. He still looks the same.
That's right, he visited today. People are saying he is moving back, others are saying he isn't but personally, I'm not quite sure wether I want him to or not. I was in 4th period when I was told he was here and lemme tell ya, I was excited as hell getting another victim. I told my friends Destiny and Lizzie and we all left for the cafeteria. Destiny looked around and I set my backpack down. Boy is my backpack heavy...... We have no lockers at my school, and it sucks. She found him and she wanted to go say hi and I told her no because I knew he wasn't the same person he was before he moved. So, the whole time we were in the cafeteria, I didn't even make eyes contact with him. When we go outside, we always hang out by the backstop. My friend Becca, one of his other exes, was yelling stuff like "Drew is a phag" or "Drew is a doosh bag" ect. ect.. I raised my hand and agreed and my friend Destiny was said that he was cool. She changed her mind after she went to say hi. She went with a guy named Daniel and she said to Drew, "Hi! You wanna be awesome and talk to me???" She was excited to see him, he was her first boyfriend. All he said to her was "You're a looser." Is that not messed up????She is one of the coolest chicks I know and she is nice too. She came back sort of mad and told us what happened and was now agreeing with Becca, siding with myself, Becca, Matt, and Daniel. I was watching my other friends Bekah, Chloe, and Seirra and Drew purposely trips on Chloe, and hurt her. I don't know if hurting her was intentional, but he still did it. I got up and went over there and of course she was pissed. Derek went to do it to Chloe but I stood up and he almost tripped. That part was fairly funny. We all stood up and Drew and a couple of his friends walked by and I told him he was a doosh. He looked at me and smiled, but said nothing. After getting out of 5th period, I was heading to drumline with my friend Sarah. Drew was no longer at the school, and I was happy for that. I was mad at him for saying that to Destiny and doing what he did to Chloe. I told Sarah that as far as I was concerned Drew could kiss my a** and that he was a d*** for doing what he did and she got mad at me, and I walked off quickly, 'cause I was arguing with her and I didn't want it... At all. Sarah is one of my best friends, I don't want to argue with her, but what happened happened. Bekah asked me what was wrong and I told her nothing and went to walk to the band room and she pulled me back and I told her part of the reason and walked to the band room and set my backpack down. When Lizzie got there, I asked her where Destiny was and I saw her round the corner and I walked to her and she asked if i was mad and I told her I was slightly ticked... I told her I wasn't mad at her and that it was 'related' to Drew's coming today. As I was walking with the Destiny into the band room, Sarah was standing there and she brought up the subject again. Lets just say this time, we were yelling and most of the guys were yelling "CAT FIGHT!!!" I went in and our drumline teacher told us to stay away from eachother and just to cool off. Matt said "Does somebody need a hug?" and because of my attitude and the fact I was pissed, I barely even looked at him and as i walked by I said, "No" which was a big mistake because I love him like a brother, nothing more, and all I need to do is ruin our relationship as bother-like and sister-like best friends, but I wasn't even concerned with that. In drumline, I was extremely despressed. Not only was I fighting with one of my best friends, and possibly made my 'brother' sad and/or stand off-ish, all the memories Drew left here with me came back, and the new him was nothing like how he was before with the exception of the way he looks. I hated this day and both loved it at the same time. When we were doing warm-ups, there was one me and my friend Seirra didn't have to do. I play xylophone and she plays the orchestra bells, and we had no part in this warm-up. I sat on the floor by the xylophone and I buried my face in my hands, beginning to cry, but I held it back. The tears we welling up in my eyes when I looked up, but none streaked down my cheeks. there was no saddening glitter on my face, and I didn't want it there. I hardly spoke a word that period, I only spoke to Matt when i told him "No," and Seirra when she asked if I was okay and I had the same answer of "No," and my drumline teacher when he asked if I understood the new warm-up me and Seirra had received. We have cubbies in our homeroom, but they are not enough to hold all of our shcool books, and I had 2 in my backpack, and my science book in my arms. My mind was filled with sour and hateful thoughts and I didn't even bother to store my books at homeroom. I didn't even check in before I left, which is a daily routine for all of the classes in my grade. I just walked down to the busses to see if I could find matt and apologise, but I was sure he was on his bus, and I turned around and saw my friend Brianna. "Bri!!!!!" I shouted to her. She was accross the way and I jogged up to her, and we walked to the parking lot. There, I waited with her until my dad came to pick me up, and I left her there. She was there for her little brother's baseball game. My dad asked me how my day went and I only told him part of the story, leaving out some of the vital but small details. My face was expressionless the whole ride home, but my head was filled with unwanted thoughts and memories... My dad told me to smiled, but I could only half smile, and when I did, he did not see. I hate Drew.... I truly do..... But there is one part in me that sadly still has feelings for him. Feelings that I do not want.
Sarah and I have made up, but we DO have bigger problems then what happened today, and it involves one of our other friends.