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I'm going back to the sea tomorrow. It's been fun being here for the holidays, but I don't feel at home here anymore. Geebus and Bucho got in a fistfight after I went to bed the night of that party, and smashed Cindy's 4-foot-tall green plastic tree in the process. Gambino replaced it the next day, with a tree that I must admit is lovely: Seven feet of white wire branches covered with gold lights. It looked like a tree made of light when it was lit up, although it was clearly as gold as everything the Gambinos love. But we took it down today, and I'm not too sorry to see it go. I'd seen Gambino and Cindy snuggling under it one too many times...and I don't care! Cindy tried to cover up their being together at first, but then she saw I wasn't going to make a fuss, and she even disappeared somewhere at New Years, leaving me alone with Lady Luck...
I don't know what's wrong with me. I should be feeling something, at any rate...my beloved aunt is snogging (and surely more) my abhorred father. A year ago I would have been screaming my head off...even six months ago I would have been. Now I feel nothing at all, as if I'm on some other plane, as if what humans do or do not do is of no concern to me. That's it, of course. Edmund can say what he likes, I'm more of the sea-people than I am human. Perhaps I look human, but inside, in my mind, I'm sea-person. Maybe that's why I've kept my bunny tail so long...it makes me less human.
So I'm going back to my kingdom. I don't belong here...I belong there, with my people. I'll leave this diary in a drawer in my room. Cindy can find it, or not, it doesn't really matter.
Farewell.