It still hurt a lot. But i put on a smile for you. I put on a smile because i didn't want you tp pity me. I put on a smile beciase i didn't want you to fele guily. I put on a smile because i wanted to hide my true feelings.
Once you were gon,e i was really depressed. I almost couldn't smile. I thought you were hurt, but i guess you weren't. It wasn't your fault. I wanted to cry, so i did. I wanted to sulk in sadness and depresstion, so i did.
You know who you are if you read this. 2 days before you said your good byes, yo uwere acting weird. You distanced yourself from me on the bus. You stopped kissing me. You stopped giving me the nice, warm, comforting hugs i used to get everyday. You helped me a lot. By doing this, it didn't hurt as much as i could have.
And so i thank you. You brought be out of my depression. You taught me how to be with someone after almost 4 years. You taught me how to french kiss. You showed me love once again. you showed me happiness, and i could neer repay you for that.
 lost in hopes · Fri Dec 21, 2007 @ 02:02am · 0 Comments |
