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"I know you see me here!"
". . . Can't you see me here?"
And still remained the silence. I wish I could shout it out.
But the only way to break the silence
Is for words to come out of your mouth
As I walk away
I hear you say
"Please, don't leave me . . ."
It was a faint a whisper
But I hear all you say
It sounds soft to the common ear
But it feels like
You screamed out to me
I turned around quickly
To see your eyes to the floor
You started walking towards me
Slowly
"You know . . . I can't lose you . . ."
You stood there in front of me
And your eyes went from the floor to my face
At that point we had nothing to say to each other
For the first time in a long time
I was able to to break the silence
"Where do we go from here?"
"The closet. You and me. 15 minutes."
You said jokingly.
"Yeah right!"
I said with a laugh
You clasped my hand
And we went away
Elsewhere
Anywhere was better than there
. . . It was too silent

"I know you see me here!"
I yelled out of frustration.
The same silence that frustrated me
Is slowly eating away at my spirit
". . . Can't you see me here?"
And the silence remained. I wish I could shout it out.
But the only one that can break the silence
Is you
As I begin to abandon you
I hear you faintly whisper
"Please, don't leave me . . ."
I paused, but kept walking
I thought, If you love me, you'll shout that you need me . . . I've waited too long for this . . .
To my surprise, you didn't need to say anything at that moment
You came up from behind me
And held me closer than I ever been to you
You walked around me, so that were were eye to eye
Your eyes looked softer than I can ever remember them to be
"I have a few words I'd like to say to you"
You said.
My bowels flipped over several times before I could nod in agreement
And listen to you change my feelings for you
Forever

"I know you see me here!"
I yelled out in anger
The silence ate away at my anger but the source remained
Sorrow with a pinch of Loneliness
I wish that yelling, could close this gap
Between you and I
But my words are as useless as gold in the afterlife
"Can't you see me here?"
I asked in a faint whisper. I didn't think you heard me.
I had a bit more composure and I again I asked
"Can't you hear me?"
My soul screams: "HEAR ME!"
My mind recites: "Feed the memories and the sense of hearing."
My heart sings: "Console me! HEAL ME!"
And yet the soft hum of silent life
Is the closest thing I can get to sound
I'm barely going through the motions of the day
Because I'm living half of my life
The first half is still in the past
Waiting to hear the echoes of a deceased voice
I know you hear me
But it never came to me
That you couldn't reply