Hey guys.....
I jsut wanted to explain my sudden mean streak and rudeness... and general jack assery. There are two reasons and I think If I explain myself you'll better understand that its not really you its probably just me ._.;
Reason 1: Real Life Stress...
There is nothing more stressful then real life right now. I've hit a point in my life where I am terribly depressed. Cry on a drop of a dime then into a fit of anger the next. The main cuase is my driving lessons and the impendign exam. I've been jerked aroudn by the company that I get lessons from, They took my original teacher from me then gave me some jack a** the made me burst into tears while driving. I filed a complaint and was given a new insructor and credited a lesson. So my new insructor was great and she helped me out alot and told me I'd have no rpoblems passing. So then came last friday, she was suppsoed to coem to ym hosue for my make up class. But she never came... I call the Young Drivers of Canada *the company i was dealing with* and they tell me that I wasn't suppsoed to get that lesson credited. So then I fought with the stupid schedualign manager on Sunday and she said my regular insructor couldn't come so they'd send me a supervisor. Well thsi old p***k comes to my hosue and takes me otu and tells me I ahve no hope in hell in passing and that I shouldn't even show up to my exam. Well that devistates me. So Hopefully that stress will disipate after Wednsday... cuase at this point I don't care if I pass or fail. If I pass great, if I fail then I rescedual and take another lesson.
I wont get too in deapth about work... those who talk to me regularly that I hate my job beyond words... So thats stressful and yeah;
Reason 2: Surprise Surprise.. Its Gaia!
Yes... Gaia has been yet another huge cause of my stress, No I will not name any names but you know who you are. When you've been screwed out of almost 1 Million worth of items and gold one tends to lose faith and stress and get pissed. No I can't call a Mod becuase Frankly its really not worth it, I really give up. If your goign to give me what you owe me great! but just give me a heads up before like 5 months or whatever passes. I know other stuff comes up but you've gotta expect someone to be pissed. When you're dealing with someone who has been burned out of over 800k just a little while ago they tend to be a little defencive. I jsut hate being led on then hosed, JUST TELL ME WHAT THE ******** IS GOING ON!!! Tell weather is jsut a lost cause! We all have problems IRL, I have yet to talk to a Gaian who dosen't.. so I understand that and am sympathetic. But when I owe someone something I try my damnest to get it to them in a timely fashion.
I don't mean to be rude to you.... I honestly don't and I feel bad that I have... its just I am so frustrated..... With eveyrthing..... With Gaia and with life in general.
So I'm trying to be calm and level headed.... so please just be paitcent with me cause I'm trying to do the same with all of you...
So Sorry;
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