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Argh... just when things seemed like they hit rock bottom.. (got school schedule for next year got none of the teachers I wanted, my sister, had a relapse, can't land my double salchow, friends are still sucky)... now they're worse!
my mom is going to make me go to a family get-together. Those SUCK because the only person who talks to me is my dad (except for those 'Hello Cori, how have you been?' awkward conversations), because the only people that are my age are boys who are obsessed with video games (which I am not).
Not only is my mom making me go to it, but I have to go on my BIRTHDAY and I'm not going to get to have a party! I've always had an all-girls sleepover since 2nd grade, and before that I had always had a all-girls party... Even with the friend issues, i could have invited my skating friends and my out of school friends, and we would have had fun... but no, now I have to go to a stupid family reunion. And I have to go because mom's cousin from Pueto Rico is gonna be there, and also, my grandma will cry if I don't go. So there's no way out.
Districts (for skating) are next week. I don't have my double salchow. I lost it. I don't know what is with me lately, I just seem to be doing awful in every aspect of my life. But I am NOT suicidal, despite what my friends think. They're so stupid!
And I keep on feeling like ants are crawling all over me. It's so gross. My house is so disgusting.