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June Idon'tcarewhatdayitis, 2005 Stupied dream reckers... BAH! I'M STILL FURIOUS!!! AHHHH!! procedes to throw stuff around randomly GRAH!!!! bashes head against wall Ugh.... falls over Okay, I'm good! Well, it all started last Friday..... I was at a lock-in, like a big slumber party, at this church. I had a lot of friends with me, and I was ready to have fun. Which mostly, I did. But then, after a while, we were taking a break. So, dun dun DUN, I got out the game Cranium. Well, it was all going good so far, it was me, Danielle, and Andi on a team. So far, I had nothing against Andi. It was all cool. It was our turn, so me and Danielle wanted to pick creative cat, she wanted Data head, but it was two against one, so we won. We got a card that you had to act something out. I wanted to act it out, because, I love acting. I want to be an actress someday. BUT, that's when hell happened. Andi goes, "No! Let Danielle do it. You've got slow motion down, but she's a better actor!" Oh, yeah....She went there. My dreams, utterly demolished...Happiness, gone. Danielle told her to let me do it, but I was so out of heart, I did a really crappy job. Sooo.....CURSE YOU, DANIELLE! WHY CAN YOU DRAW, WRITE, AND NOW, ACT, BETTER THAN ME!!! WHAT DO I GOT THAT'S SPECIAL JUST TO ME, HUH?! ALL MY FRIENDS ARE BETTER THAN ME!!! ALL OF THEM!!!! Anyways, I'm joking Danielle. I know it's not your fault that you have all those talents, but I thought I had acting going for me. Apparently I don't..... I may seem selfish, but I do want some talent that I can have that I'm really, really good at. I can't draw as good as any of my friends, I can't sing, I can't write as good, I can't dance, I'm not as pretty, I can't swim as good, I not as smart, I'm not as good at video games, I'm not as athletic, now, I can't act as good, what do I got going for me....I really wanted to be a famous actor, but now I've lost the confidence. Oh, sure, I could try to get better, but, that's always going to haunt me. It may not seem like a big deal, but it's a big deal to me... I know Andi didn't mean it, but man, did she get me deep. Now, I'm still depressed about it, and it's been three days since she said it. I don't hate her, but there's something inside me that just wants to go and rip her apart! sad

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Commented on: Mon Jun 06, 2005 @ 09:39pm


	jada. come on now. you know you can act. don't let one person's comment ruin your dream. by the way, you can draw. i can't draw. i've got the talent whatsoever, but jada, you do. you really do! don't you dare say i can dance or anything else! i can't do all that crap! the one thing i over all of you is...umm...well, i can't think of one! please jada! you have to be happy. when you're happy, you make everyone else happy! your humor and the way you act, that's what you've got over everyone else. trust me.

Commented on: Mon Jun 06, 2005 @ 10:09pm


	sniff Thanks! smile

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Commented on: Mon Jun 06, 2005 @ 10:10pm


	Not only would you be an excellent actress, but I'm sure you be an excellent comedian. I am horrible at acting, and imrpov. I believe you excel at both. Don't listen to, Andi! What kind of person compares two individuals like that? That's cruel. Your right, she probably didn't mean it, but that gets on my nerves like crazy too. As long as you know your a good actress, that is all that matters. Frankly, I think your hilarious. Danielle has her moments and so do you. Both of you act very good. Perhaps, Andi favors one style to the other. You're different people so you have different styles. Not everyone is going to like your style. I do, however and that's a good thing. I barely laugh at anything on tv. Ask charna, I don't. If you were on tv, I'd be in fits. It's good that your different. It's good to accept different styles. If Andi can't do that, then that's sad. You should be open to lots of things instead of just some. SOOO, summer gym sucks PEACE OUT - El Windo

Commented on: Mon Jun 06, 2005 @ 10:31pm


	Darja:your welcome. i'm here til...umm...the end of summer? trigunchick:you took the words right out of my mouth. of course, you always do. gonk

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Commented on: Fri Jun 10, 2005 @ 07:14pm


	dont say tht ur a really good actor jada i bet u could be a better actor thn danielle

Commented on: Fri Jun 10, 2005 @ 11:16pm


	Dajra. If I knew where you lived, I would slap you in hopes it would restore your senses and therefore your dreams. Does this 'Andi' (the name feels vile on my keyboard) know you? Really know you? I'm guessing no. You shouldn't pay attention to what others say. Especially when they are wrong. An example, perhaps? The producers of Pirates of the Carribean were afraid to release the movie because they thought it would be a bust. And was it? No, they stood far corrected. Even from just chatting with you, (and the comments the others posted) I can see that you are a funny gal. And it takes a good-humored person to be an actor. Trust me, I know. My uncle (deceased now, rest his soul) was a small-time actor. Funniest man I knew. Wonderful actor. I know this is turning into a small novel, but I just want to say one more thing. Don't let what others say about you hurt you. Be satisfied that who you are is who God made you. God won't smile brighter at a prettier face. He won't listen more closely to a lovely voice or an expert writer. He won't lavish attention on an artist or a brilliant scientist. He won't watch an Olypmic athlete more closely. You are you, and that's all He cares about. After all, God is your final judge, not man. 3nodding I hope you feel better!

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Commented on: Sat Jun 11, 2005 @ 03:56am


	Jada!!!! Half of those things you name your better than me at!! Your always gonna have someone better than you.....your also gonna be better than everyone at something. I can't even play video games that well. I have these nice blound moments were it takes me hours to get threw. But that doesnt change my love for them. The same as your love for acting! Which your better at me at mad And the fact that you rule at acting and I suck at videogames. There almost one in the same razz Besides thats just one opinion...Everyone at school is better at me at everything I do.... Ive even had nasty coments like that but I still try....remember my poetry...I knew you and Danielle where better....and Reana...and olivia....and Heather.......and everyone else on the face of the earth was better.....but I still write considering I suck! mrgreen

Commented on: Sat Jun 11, 2005 @ 04:12am


	Hey man i feel your pain...ive had dreams shattered too...infact on of my dreams related to drama...remember when i wanted to be a movie director...well im not so sure now i had more than one person insult my acting and i told myself how the heck am i kidding how am i soposed to direct actors when i can't even direct myself...i can't even look at my vidio camera with out getting sick...but you hang on to your dreams and i respect that don't make me lose that image of you...i don't even have a dream anymore...im not good at anything on your list...i know i check more than once...cough cough any ways you'll bounce back you always do...i just wish i was good at something so i could excell at it...but im just not...i try to be perfect but i just can't...in fact i need to find myself another dream...stunt devil maybe xd

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Commented on: Sat Jun 11, 2005 @ 04:56pm


	Correction. You can draw. Like anything else, it takes practice and people have different styles. My dad got me into drawing when I was five! Some people might think DaVinci's work is better than Picasso's because it's more realistic. Others may think otherwise. I, however, think you're an awesome artist, especially considering you only really got into it this and last year. Not as athletic? Jada, you should see me at Summer Gym. I can't even hit a volleyball past two feet. I can't return a tennis ball. I can't swim for more than 20 minutes before getting exhausted. My mile time is 11-something minutes, and that's with walking breaks. It took me five times to hit the softball, and I couldn't catch it or make it to second base. You are a far better athlete than me. Better actor? Me? Are you kidding me? Do you remember me last year? I was pathetic! I mumbled my lines and showed the audience a lotta tush! You were awesome at acting. You inspired me to be more confident, Jada. You were the reason I wanted to do SKit Squad in 8th grade. I wanted to try to be like you because I thought you were great. Just because I'm a little...uh...crazier, for lack of a better term, now doesn't mean I'm a better actor. Forget what Andi said, okay? Wait, no, don't forget it. There will always be people like that who criticize you without knowing it. I've had plenty of my share and I'm sure some prisses talk about me behind my back. You know what? I don't care, cause I know I've got my friends behind me all the way. You shouldn't either. I'll always be there for you! And, besides, we can always send our hitmen to deal with those that really get on our nerves, right? (Even if they are on vacation in Siberia. wink )

Commented on: Sat Jun 11, 2005 @ 05:19pm


	sniff sniff Thanks guys! crying (tears of joy) I'm fine about it know. Taco Bell fixes everything! twisted

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