Death and other things that recently popped into my head:
Why can't it all just disappear?
Why can't it all just leave me alone?
I want to be alone
I simply want to die
You won't hurt me anymore
You won't make my cry
My death will hurt you
My death will make you cry
My warm blood will surround me
Covering my cold lifeless body
Your wish your body was cold
You'll wish to fell my warmth again
Don't worry though
I won't go alone
Come with me
I can end it all for us
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I'll watch you cry
I'll watch you weep
I'll laugh as you cry
I'll be laughing from hell
I have found where I belong
I have found warmth at last
In the devil's grasp
His claws around me holding me gently
He holds me close to him
The flame surrounding me
Keeping me warm and holding me close
Like you never did for me
Why didn't you hold me close?
You never cried for me
You never even said 'thank you'
So now I say, ******** you.
Okay I did this since I was so pissed of to the point I sort of cut myself...yeah I was thinking about killing myself. I mean seriuosly. You get so annoyed you want the world to go away. Sometimes I'll tell you people. I get sick of my parents. WHy do they care if I fail or not? It's my mistake, they shouldn't care. Then you have teachers and other people bothering you about it. It drives me crazy. I swear, I guess I know what it's like to be pushed to the point where you'd hold a gun up to your head. Though I know I wouldn't be able to pull the trigger. I guess I'm not as strong as I thought huh?
I mean people who know me know that I am abusive, I'm cruel, and just plan crazy. Now though that I think about this I feel so weak...maybe I am just a weak pathatic human. It sickens me...if only I'd die...
 elegantdemonofpoop · Thu May 19, 2005 @ 01:10am · 10 Comments |
