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“I felt empty yesterday. I guess it was because I didn’t get to talk to her. Even as I type this down that empty feeling is taking over. Like a sort of loneliness one feels when they feel alone. I feel it right now in my chest. As if something were missing. Its pure loneliness. Even though I’m talking to a few people now that loneliness wont go away. I want it to go away badly but it feels like its getting bigger and bigger. God I hate this feeling. I just wan it to go away….I feel like I just want to sit in a corner somewhere and think. But at the same time what I need the most is for someone to just be here for me. Or better yet with me. I just want to cuddle right now. I want to hug someone just hold them. I mean physically be right here right by me. This feeling keeps getting bigger and bigger and I hate it so damn much. I guess I feel depressed for some reason. I hate it when that happens. I guess I just want to really feel like I’m loved. I mean I know I am but to have someone say I love you with their own voice weather it be on the phone or right here with me…there are two people who say that to me to the point to were I can hear their voice on the phone. That would be my girl Tracy and my very best friend Riddle. I love them both so damn much. just to hear their voices puts a smile on my face. I’d do anything for them they mean to world to me. When I talk to each one its like I get this feeling inside. This warm feeling that lets me know that there is some good things out there in this cold world we all live in. if anything were to happen to Tracy I’d cry my head off. If anything were to happen to Riddle then I’d die on the spot. Why would I want to die if something happened to riddle? Because she and I have been threw some things together and we’ve known each other since the 7th grade. I love them both so damn much….they mean the world to me….”