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	I Used To Think (A Love Letter)
	I Used To Think (A Love Letter)


"I used to think that no matter what I do people wouldn't care... But ever since I met you I've been having these doubts... I began to think that you care, about what I do... I must be crazy to thinking that someone like you would actually care about me, am I crazy thinking these thoughts? Why would you of all people care about me? You don't know me, you don't even wanna know me do you? I'm nobody special, I'm just another face you have to remember...aren't I? It must be a dream...but why would I dream of you? Of all the people I know, so many beings superior to you... why you? You aren't the type of person I like, nothing close to it... There are so many faults to your character that I could point out, so many things I don't like about you... Wait, what am I saying...I don't know you either. In fact you're just another face I have to remember, I don't want to remember you though...I don't need to, do I? What I want is...how do I know what I want? ... I don't want to remember you...because I'll just, leave you... I...I don't want to leave you though, I don't know why but... I want you near, I want you to care because I...need you to. My heart races when you come near, it can't stop... But when you go...it's dead, I'm dead without you. When I hear your name my heart skips with joy, but when I realize you aren't near it falls flat on it's face...it hurts, it hurts so bad. Every time it falls it leaves a crack in my heart, how very fragile it is... I can't live life without you, I can't...I don't want to. I think about you everyday, I dream of you...day and night, not a minute flies by where I don't think of you. I know I don't know you but I want you so bad, I can't help myself...thinking the thoughts that I do... It's like no matter what I do I can't convince myself that we'll never be... I try so hard, lord knows I try so hard to forget you...but you just won't go away. I fell to deep into your eyes to get out, I'm lost inside... Fighting these feelings of temptation, these urges to be with you... I'm winning the battles but I feel that I'm losing the war...I'm losing my only hope of ever being with you by keeling these feelings. You are in love with another I could care so little about, but you...need her, and I... I wish you both the best, because I just want you to be happy...even at the expense of my own happiness. She has so much to offer to you yet I have nothing but words, All I could ever do is tell you that I love... I love your every aspect, from head to toe to the very inside of your soul... I love the way you walk, the way you talk...when you laugh I can't help look your way... You have no clue about how bad I want to hold you in my arms and never let you go, how bad I want to smother you with my love... When I dream of you...birds are singing, children are playing, and the world is in perfect harmony... I dream of your touch, just one touch from your long long and slender fingers...it could even be the tip of your fingernail, you would melt me into nothing. I dream of your kiss, I can only imagine how sweet it must be, just thinking of it sends me to heaven...imagine what it would do if you kissed me. I dream of life with you at my side...I am so happy in my dream and so are you, everything is perfect... But when I reach out to touch you, you dissapear with a mocking smile...the ending of my dream is so cruel, I wake up to return to reality and find that you aren't there... You have killed...so many times, because I die when you aren't near... Tell me how many more deaths must I endure till you actually care... Tell Me... how many more times I have to watch you dissapear in front of my eyes... how many more times I have to watch you walk away without even so much a goodbye... how many more cracks you are going to put in my heart before you mend it... How many times, am I going to have to pretend that I don't love you... Just so that you can live in your happiness, while I'm left with nothing but hole in my heart..." morbid_x_youth · Tue Jul 31, 2007 @ 04:32am · 0 Comments


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