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13th July
The day I'll never forget

When I came home I was ironing my skirt and then when I finished I went on the computer. I was talking to my internet bf Zach and we were talking about anime and things like that. I thought that I haven't been watching much anime lately so I went on crunchyroll and the guy that I RP rape with has sent me a mail with him cybering with me. I asked him if he was cybering. I know he was so my bf called and I told him what happened. Then he got all sad and hung up on me.

2 seconds after 2 seconds he rings me back saying sad things... and he asked me, do you want to break up then my friend was to pick me up to the limo that I was supposed to go into. I was in a hurry so I said to my bf. YES I WANT TO BREAK UP NOW GO AWAY! I didn't mean to say that and 2 mins later. I regretted what I said. He phoned me back saying, Fine be that way and I said WHATEVER because I was in a big hurry >_<.

My friend took me to where the limo was going to come and it was a white limo! IT'S LOVELY!!!! I think I forgot all about what happened earlier on the phone. I forgot part of it. Though I still feel a bit sad. Then I was singing out the window and forgot most of my sadness. Well that's good to let all my stress out =]

When I went to pizza hut with my form I told them about my relationship with my bf because we kept it a secret from the others because they'll make fun of us. Especially Damaris, he's the hell devil!

So I tried to phone my bf but he wouldn't pick up the phone. Then after sometime my friend tried ringing and his mum picked it up and I said hi and she said. Oh! is that Cindy? and I said Yes. Then she said, Do you want to talk to Dom? Then I said yes.

He said Hi in a very sad voice. I went into the toilet and talked. I was asking him like,"Do you really want to break up with me? If you do you better say it out cleary or else I really can't stand it. Then he said phone me when you get home so I did but the phone was busy. Then he said. I wanted to break up because I just worry too much about you. I don't want to go through all this pain. So then we were just friend. I feel really sad about that.

Then I started crying and crying. I asked him,"Can we just be strangers? I don't want to know you! I don't want to go through this pain ever again! I want to find the perfect person for me. Right now oyu are but you won't accept that. That's the only thing I'm sad about." Then again he said,"It's not that I don't love you it's because I don't want to feel pain. I want you to be happy not sad," then I said,"Well right now you're not making me happy are oyu now? If your happy with being friends then fine. If you're happy I'm happy too"

(I'm actually typing and crying at the same time. I love Dom so much.. I'll never ever leave him. No matter what. He's just the perfect person for me. That's all I can say. We have similar personalities. We have a lot in common and we're used to each other so we get along quite well at the first 4 weeks of our relationship. But then... I started to cyber. (I think it's gross now so I gave up on cybering) My bf couldn't get over the cybering thing for 1 whole week and he was always looking sad at school and I was sad because he was just about to dump me. I was scared. So I started crying and then he said,"Cindy, don't cry!" and then he said,"I'm not going to dump you!" Because I cried he decided not t dump me anymore.

But right now our relationship has gotten even more harder. I'm crying more and harder. And today was the hardest one I've ever cried in history before! I was so sad that my heart hurted so much. I didn't want to leave my baby! I just wanna call him right now just to say I love you!

I'll always love you.

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