What do I need? God, what more do I need to make it feel right? To make life feel right? Why do I feel so compelled by some unknown force to want more out of this life. I've got a thirst I can't quench, I got a hunger I can't satisfy. I just need something. Something, anything. I feel like I'm walking in the dark, walking in circles, and I'm getting nowhere. I'm becoming so paranoid and caught up. I stay up some nights, and when I do fall asleep, it's not for long. I get fustrated, aggitated, I start twitching even. I just go insane and feel like I have nothing to do, nowhere to go, no one to look to, nothing to look foward to. I start shaking, my heart pounds. I studder and jitter around nervously. I just never felt something so incredibly weird. I feel like I'm falling apart and can't do anything about it but let it happen. I just want to scream, and yet I bite my tounge. I don't know what it is. I shake a lot at times though. It's like a bone chilling shiver, and it never ends. I get so apprehensive over nothing, I get so wound up for nothing, and I feel like I'm going to snap.
I'm gonna snap like a ******** twig. I need answers. I need to know what my purpose is. I need to know if something good's gonna happen soon, because the way my body and mind goes haywire spontaneously like this makes me wonder if I'm heading to a psych ward.
-Schizoid
 Refined Corruption · Tue Apr 26, 2005 @ 06:21am · 0 Comments |
