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I just recently colored my hair pink. It was supose to be purple, but it's not. It's hot pink. XD But I think I like it better this way.

It kinda makes me sad because the one person I want to show, will probably never see it. It'll wash out in 6 to 8 weeks. I might maybe talk to him via phone, but I wont say anything about it cause he dosen't care.

Don't you think it's weird how the pain that hurts the worst is the kind you can't see. It's phyical and everything, but it's not bleeding. I wake up at night from bad dreams that show what a stupid person I am, and my body screams in pain. But theirs no blood. I feel like my heart is ripped open, but the skin is not torn. My wrists and hands pulse and it hurts so bad I want to cut them off. I've been cut up before, and the pain is nothing like what we feel when our hearts are broken or when our souls are torn apart. We all hurt like this sometimes, and the worst part is, nobody else will ever see your wounds, and very few will even believe when you tell about them.