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So yeah I think I've finally decided it....
Im sick of this world...
Im sick of the lies that become truth
I think...its time to end it now...
The problem is on how to do it.
What is the best way to end it..
The best way to be reckless.
I want it to be easy and fast with little pain almost like an accadent.
Throwing myself in front of a bus quickly on my bike seems best.
It gives me the most concussive force and it gives the driver the lest time to react.
The only thing is Ive never been strong..so I am scared of failure in this.
though Ive figured it out...no one really cares at all..they only think they do...but its a lie.
Yes lies have corropted me again sooo yeah I'm really done now.
I don't think anyone relizes Im doing this..
My dad saw me today and he said nothing...people are used to me mooping around so to them its no big deal.
You might want to know more on why I'm doing this...well it's becuse, My dad is right...I am worthless...I do nothing all day...and even when I do work I try to get out of it..
So since Im worthless and don't contribute I might as well since I'm unneeded.
I've figured out that everything I've said or stood for is a lie.
There is no west
There is no codes to stand strong by.
There is no love , love is a lie.
So I sign out as...Game Over..