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I don't want them to see me cry.
I promised that it wouldn't happen again.
But it hurts so much...
My eyes are burning.
I don't want to cry when I get home.
I have to wait untill I'm alone.
Like I always am...
I just wish he was here.
He's the only one that can see me cry.
Because I know it's alright around him.
He's someone to hold.
Someone who will hold.
So I can let go.
And let it pour out.
He won't judge me if I cry.
He'll make me smile again.
And wipe away my tears.
He'll let me know.
That I can forget my pain.
And my heart will heal again.
Just by letting my tears fall.
We'll laugh and smile.
And I will forget.
And I will heal.
But for now.
I'm on my own.
He isn't here.
It can't change now.
Maybe in the future.
But not now...
All I can do is imagine.
Imagine his warm hug.
And his soft kiss.
Remeber his voice.
Because it's all I have.
Just memories.
Hopes...
Wishes...
The things that hold me together.
Reading text.
Clicking and tapping.
It's not the same.
But that's where he'll stay...
In my mind...
My heart...
But maybe I could see him.
I've found an easy button.
...Easy trigger...
There are only three steps...
Point...
Pull...and....
B......A.........N..........G........