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I’m so mad I could just scream I have no idea what to do. They have messed it all up I just want out. out I say out let me go I really just need to cry but am to stouter right now and I can't stand my self I can't even stand the world around me right now I fell like I should die I can't stand to look at anyone without getting mad cause I feel like the world it self has just stab me in the heart and I have where to go but to stand there and bleed and let the blood run out as I stand there not allowed to cry out for help just to stand there and cry. as each tear falls I could not find the air to breath now I find someone twisting the blade as they eased it out enough to let me catch my breath enough to breath then all the sudden forcing it back in my chest so I can not say I word not scream just more tears fall as they twist the blade just to see more tears fall! I fell like a river of blood and tears cause the tears fall just as much as the blood from my heart they I handed to them so foolish no I must set in pain and watch the pain fall out from my heart and my tears fall like rain endlessly is there a night that I’m not spouse to cry my heart out why can I not be happy why can I not be happy I just want to know why

someone please help me please god in heaven tell me what am spouse to do I just found my outlet now am spouse to walk away from it without a word nothing holding me I don't understand
I fell my whole body shacking from my bones to my blood what should I do I have nothing to lose any more there nothing left of me what should I do I have nothing to hold on to no one special to stand me up so god please help me I falling here I know that I should talk to you more and not turn to everything first but I know I am a bit ridicules but please don't take the music away from me it is one of the only things that keeps me alive any more cause I am still hang on I know
I don't know how many more punches I can take of this please help me I can take it any more
I need you please I have lost so much in a year please don't take my music away it what brings me closer to you and what makes me different no one knows me better then you so please god in heaven help me
Am falling here
What else can I give you I have nothing! Nothing to hold too
Everything is gone my world my space everything nothing is every right
and every one still looks to me cause I still hold a smile on my face to hide the pain in side my heart it not too much longer before I just pop I don't know how much more I can hold on to before I just let it all go

The hardest thing anymore is just let everything go cause like a blade every time stabbing my heart all the way through no scream just tears to express my feelings
And getting up everyday with it right there not less pain just more everyday

I don't want to be mad I don't want to cry it here I just want things to be like they use to be before I came here I was happy and am just tired I really don't care any more about anything this is it I can't take any more I just want out.