• It's a miracle,
    how everyday I continue to live.
    How I resist
    the seductive call of
    the Blade
    the Pills
    the Chemicals.
    All of them calling to me
    every single second
    of every single minute
    of every single hour
    of every single day
    of every single week
    of every single month
    of every single ******** year!
    It gets harder and harder,
    their call becomes stronger and louder.
    Their hold on me increases
    tightening
    squeezing away
    my breath
    my life.
    Only one choice
    Only one option
    But I can't
    won't
    refuse to
    Do it.
    I have to
    want to
    need to
    Do it.
    Just once...then I'm done...
    I think...
    hope
    pray
    wish...