I almost broke up with Phox this past week. I dunno. I didn't feel happy.. I was depressed.. almost to the point of crying. I know that I'm supposed to act feminine for the new year resolution.. but I don't want to cry. It pains me to do something like that. Its terrible. If not for all that then I'd be okay.
But luckily, Phox and I are still together in our open relationship. I didn't really want to tell him that I wanted to break up because of the whole fact that other guys like me and I like them back. No I'm going to stay with Phox until need be. I've never had any relationship this long. I want it to work out to at least a year.. but if it won't.. then it won't.
My dear Phox doesn't realize how much I want him only to be mine.. and mine alone. Yet I can't seem to gather the courage to stay commited to him and only him. I can't stay with him much longer. I know I'm bound to break up with him because of my lack of emotion. My greatest weakness is probably one of the things that is essential for being human... dawning love.
I know that he likes Ari, and Ari likes him back. I still like Roman and stuff but I don't think he likes me back anymore. I'm worried if I go to Anime Punch, then what will happen. Roman.. my dear Roman... I like him, but thats not enough. I feel as if this drama is going to keep up forever. I know its selfish of me to say this but.. I wish I never got into this mess.
Theres nothing beneficial in this relationship for either of us. We already like other people and we're still together.. shouldn't we break up? question
 Celeste_Orchid · Sun Jan 14, 2007 @ 07:42am · 0 Comments |
