Blah....I've been very mood-swingish lately...I wonder what that's all about. -sigh- So bored, so confused, I never understand anything anymore...I feel like a soul in an empty unless shell that is ready to leave. I feel like I've been alive forever, and to tell ya the truth my soul is exhausted.
I'm always lonely...my lonelyness didn't bother me till about a few days ago.
Seems like everyone has a friend or a boyfriend...
someone they can depend on and crap like that. I wonder what that's like...sounds nice.
So yeah, none of my really good friends are online everyone is all obsessed and over run by highschool and homework and s**t....blech, nothing really matters anymore. You lose some you gain some. I've lost alot of friends and got back only a few. Maybe my mother is right and I just want attention from the wrong people. I wonder when the next time I'm gonna have a nightmare is...I miss those, gave me something to think about in the morning. I still live a lousy life, better then some I suppose, still...I feel like my dad in this situation, lonely, confused, pretty much clueless.
Sometimes I wonder what death is like...I know so many people who have died and it saddens me, I just wanna know what it's like to be dead...get rid of all your problems, be careless and free. Go to hell, go to heaven...I just really wanna know what it's like to die. Guess my depressed side is starting to kick in, I'm such a dork...
Well, that's all for today I guess, mine as well not talk anyone reading this to death with my depression and wall of text.
Peace Out Guys,
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 Peprika · Mon Oct 09, 2006 @ 09:47pm · 0 Comments |
