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Well, Jess is talking to me now...but I dont think she really wants to be my friend anymore cry Ever feel like you are losing someone and they are slowly drifting awway from you but there is nothing you can do to keep them? Well, thats how I feel right now, and its not only her, its my boyfriend to, I dont think I have strong feelings anymore for him, I havent seen him for three and a half weeks, but when I finally did talk to him it was over Msn and I didnt feel anything special between us. Now he is gone again so by the time he gets back it would be a month I havent seen him. And to make it worse there are two other guys that would love to be my boyfriend, I just want to stay single without commitments for a while.
I just moved to another province, and I miss my friends more then anything or anybody in the world, they meant everything to me, I still talk to them but its not the same as being able to hang with them all teh time.
Last night I found a kitty that was pretty sad, it was all greasy from living under cars and pretty hungry, I brought it in the house forgeting my brother is allergic adn got in trouble, my sisters best friend said she will take it for us because we cant keep it, but I already got attached to the little guy. His name is tiger, and he seems to think I'm his mother. I will be looking after him for a week, untill stacie moves and is ready to take him. I dont think I will be able to give him up. My sister(courtney) says we can take in hypoallergetic dogs as foster pets, but I dont know if that is a good idea, I will constantly fall in love with them then someone is going to come and swipe them away from me. I am already losing so much
Another thing is my parents, I havent seenthem since I was four and I dont know what to do, courtney says it is best if I dont see them because they are both druggies and alchoholics. But someday, I think I will find them and meet them.
Last night I just sat on my bed with tiger in my lap and cried for hours, I cried like there was no tomorrow, I dont know why I was crying, I just cried, all my emotions came pouring out of me all at once. I have never seen that side of me before, I guess I have been keeping everything so bottled up for the longest time. I still feel like crying and I dont know why. I guess all I need is a friend, unfortanatly I think the only person that I can talk to or will be there for me doesnt want to be my friend anymore. I feel like I am losing everything and every one...
 [Fairy.Love] · Sat Aug 26, 2006 @ 07:22pm · 0 Comments |
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