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I admit, I regret it. Today I got by a lot better than before. I finally got a note he left in my locker on Friday. I wish I would have gotten it earlier; it was the journal entries he owed me. And he also said he loved me and wanted to be with me, though he would support my decision, no matter what. That sucks, because it was a bad decision, and now I'm suffering over it, which I'm sure he is too. Oddly I have missed him at school because I think he's suspended.
Yesterday I was called into the dean's office because she wanted to see if I would like to be a part of the mediation agreement between him and Cassidy. We ended up discarding it as an agreement only necessary for them. The dean just wanted to let me know I wasn't being left out, nor dragged in. Wow... I love my school.
However, I was told that Damien told Cassidy if I dumped him he would kill her. Obviously he didn't mean it, but he needs to learn not to say things like that. It's not something you say over and over again to the same person... Cassidy said she felt bad that I dumped him, she's sorry, and she didn't mean for him to be suspended. Well, she obviously felt threatened, 'cause she reported him. WHat else did she expect would happen?
Ebony and I were talking about it just now, and I realized, I've done the same thing. Scheib was so annoying last year, I had to beat her around and yell at her, too, and Ebony's dad had to do the same thing Damien did to a girl when he was in high school. There's no use realizing that it's no big deal, because I already feel like s**t, I already regret it, and I already forgive him. I forgave him a long a** time ago. I'm willing and needing to be friends, at least, with him. I have to talk to him again. Though, I don't deserve to. He probably won't talk to me, 'cause he's mad, or thinks that I'm pathetic and I have no right to even smile at him. It's all true, so, hey, whatever.
 the_original_demongal · Tue May 02, 2006 @ 11:26pm · 1 Comments |
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