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6th-Jul-2009 08:56 pm - [protected post] Just a few words...
waycest
RYDEN WILL LIVE ON IN THE HEARTS.


Ryden doesn't seem possible right now, but think of it postively, and maybe you can see evidence of Ryden.

WE LOVE RYDEN!!!


18th-Jun-2009 07:21 pm - [protected post] A needed update...
waycest
Sun

The sun, it shines
Gone is the rain
And everything is beautiful again
“Too much sun can be a bad thing” they say
It destroys crops,
Burns skin
Sometimes the rain is needed
But right now I love the shine.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

I haven't been able to get a moment much to myself. I feel like I am going to go insane if I don't stop this. Maybe I need to go home one day soon.
First week I got out of school on wenesday, and went to Katie's house. Then I spent til Monday there, when we decide to go to my house. Then on wenesday we split up only for me to go to my grandma's house til Friday. On Friday I went to my dad's house, and Sunday night I went home. Monday I was on the move again, and was back over Katie's house.
Hell it's not even the not having privacy to myself thing thats bothering me. Its the I need some kind of time alone. Over Katie's I feel like we always have to go to the store, and if that isn't bothering me, we pick at each other slightly to get on each other's nerves. I don't know how thats even possible. Maybe I am now begining to miss my mom.
I guess other than that I am fine. I wrote the poem above to show my feelings. I mean take the sun as a metaphor for time hanging out with Katie, and the rain as the time away. Crops is my productivity and the skin is my brain. I hope it mmakes more sense like that.

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18th-Jun-2009 07:18 pm - [protected post] Writer's Block: I Can Relate
waycest

What fictional character do you most identify with?

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I think I can most identify with Selene from Underworld. She wants to believe what her clan has told her but it is all lies and she later she finds out the truth. She has to destroy the people she loved and make out the truth from the lies. I feel this way all the time, especially with my friends. Most of the time I learn that they are talking behind my back and the relatioship is destroyed.

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1st-Jun-2009 03:53 pm - [protected post] I remeber...
waycest
I remember when I thought Livejournal was the coolest website in the world and I would get on everyday just to read story updates, and post my own story updates.
I remember when I used to love Sarah to death and wanted to hang out with her like every day, so I would travel an hour and half to get to her house during the summer.
I remember when Katie was almost like a name without a face because I didn't really know her. I would talk to her most over msn.
I remember when I used to talk to people on the internet a lot, having nothing to do, and making them feel like my best friends.
I remember feeling soo depressed that suicide would seem like the answer no matter what. I never felt good enough, and I always seemed to come last.
I remember wanting to hang out with Lacie all the time. She seemed like the coolest person in the world, and I wanted to hang out with me.
I remember when I thought I needed some kind of mental abuse to get through the day. Sometimes physical abuse would do just fine.
I remember when getting out of school meant going to your grandma's house for most of the summer. Or at least thats what I did all summer.
I remember wanting to be on the computer 24/7. It had a lot of interesting things, and could keep me easily entertained.

All of this was me a year ago, and now it's not. It's the complete opposite.

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14th-May-2009 09:41 pm - [protected post] (no subject)
waycest
Well, hmm lets see more randomness to post to my journal. I am actually home today, but I won't be tomorrow. Somedays I feel like I fail being a human being.
I feel like I am missing out on things, such as awesome band fics and my favorite writers. Everyone seems to be having some kind of trouble trying to find the free time to post or something that they want to do. I remember about a year ago I was so obsessed with lj and fanworks that it wasn't even funny. Now I only get on when its like my last resort.
I usually am stalker like to my favorite writers but now I don't even want to.

I keep writing and I keep trying to post, but its all on my fanworks.org account. You can go there if you want, and read some of my new things. But I really don't even feel like posting to here, like its too much work posting to both.
If only Sarah got done that next part of Bounce, then I would post it. But she's into other things and I guess I have to too.

Hell I know I've been changing but have I really changed that much from last year? It would be really creepy if someone said yes. But then again I have no idea about myself any more.

I don't feel like even stalking Mcr or Panic or anything right now. I don't know, but its all seem to have gotten boring or something. I think people need to get lives and stop being on the internet. Go out and try to hang out or something.

I guess thats about it for now, if anyone cares to still read my journal.
~Stacy

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9th-May-2009 11:27 pm - [protected post] Long time no write...
waycest
Ehh it Saturday May 9, 2009 and I have had an awesome day hanging out with Katie. I mean this. But yet I feel like I spend a little too much time with Katie. I feel like if I'm not on the internet then I lose out and have to catch up on a week worth of info within 20 minutes. I feel like I am slowly losing friends, and annoying people that maybe just maybe I shouldn't be annoying.
My phone is dead, and I do not have a charger for it. And I have plenty of things that I need to be doing on Sunday. That includes reading all first five chapters of the Great Gatsby, typing up my Physics paper, and trying to work on my Foundations of Tech prodject. Its a lot to deal with and I thought Friday was the due date for most of it, yet I had this whole weekend and I procrastinated. Isn't that wonderful?
I miss reading stories and talking to Haley and Chandler and even writing my own stories.

They said they would be back within 15 minutes, well its been like 30 minutes. This sucks in a way. I guess I'll go play the Sims now and make the characters fall in love....

One last thing before I go: LOVE IS NOT OVER-RATED!

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1st-May-2009 09:14 pm - [protected post] um...
waycest
God I haven't posted here in a while. Like I have anything to post...
Everything I want to blurt out to the world should be kept in secret and definitely not said here...
Somedays my life seems to suck so much. I've been going to Katie's house so it doesn't suck. I hate being home. I feel so lonely. I mean my mom is usually talking about something that I don't want to talk about, and people on the internet eventually get off and leave me alone. I don't like that alone feeling. It's slightly creepy.
Why does Melody ******** do things to annoy me and then when I ask her to stop she only makes it worse, which makes me feel like putting her through the worst pain ever. Like poking an umbrella through her eye that one day. *Sigh* I'm such a terrible person somedays.
I'm pretty sure if someone is going to read this, they aren't going to comment, and I would love response from people.
Some days I feel like there's only three people who care about what I feel. Those three are Haley, Chandler and Katie. Haley makes me feel missed all the time, and considering I'm like one of her only friends... Chandler is sweet too, and some time doesn't see my problems, but if I tell her, she'll help. Katie is the best person in the world to make me smile. If it wasn't for Katie, I might be dead by now.
I feel as if Sarah doesn't care much. Of course she doesn't talk to me much anymore. I don't know what it is, and I feel horrible all the time around her. I can't stand it really, because she makes me feel like a horrible person.
I don't know, Katie is one of the only ones who doesn't make me feel like a horrible person. She makes me feel like I should be alive and be here on the Earth and all.

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