He's not back. He took the truck and left yesterday when I was playing an online game with someone.That jerk doesn't know how to keep promises. I don't hate him...but this Love thy Neighbor thing is harder than it sounds. I feel sorry for the person who took him in. And I have a feeling who it may be too...
My dream advice didn't work on me, mostly cause i didn't repeat the phrase. The trick was, that if you keep on thinking on that phrase, you'd be doing the opposite on what you'd be saying."don't dream of bunnies". then u dream of nothing but fluffy bunnies. Usually that works. Now because of the lack of will, today I feel like crap. Im not usually on Sundays because its a rule in our house. (not sabbath day or anything my mom just wants the machine to have a day off)
My dream instead was a train.I was the only passenger, or so I thought. I saw a human figure, and it embraced me.I was shocked until he spoke to me. He said "Everything will be okay. I promise. " I recognized the voice and hugged it back. I was crying my eyes out again. Then everything bad that had happened over the years went through my head. the funerals, the leaving, the arrest, the attempted suicide. I saw it all clear as day. I broke off the hug and ran out the window, only to be hit by another train passing by. Then I saw nothing but black. I wonder if thats why my head hurts and my stomach is queasy. (btw i literally just woke up)
I still can't stop thinking of my friend either...
Yesterday, when I saw his face in the picture, My crush grew bigger. I'm sorry, it's just that I had a crush when I first spoke to him. Since then I just love it when he talks to me. Just a simple 'hi' make my eyes light up with joy.
He listens while I talk and he makes me feel like I'm someone to be proud of. He's really cute to boot!! but who am I kidding. He has a girlfriend that makes him really happy. strange thing is, ever since I met him, this small infatuation of mine hasn't disappeared on me.It got bigger crying
You would think it'd go away by now. Next thing you know, I'll be professing my lo...GAH!!!! don't give it a second thought!!! Anyway, I hope that this feeling goes away. I don't want our friendship to get really awkward...
Till Next Time. Things will get better.....I hope.....
~ emotion_bigheart Ani~
 UnknownMusicmaker · Sun Mar 03, 2013 @ 07:54pm · 0 Comments |
