Today i did some drawings....
My breath came out jagged. The cold night air wasn't helping. I swallowed a breath of air before I kept running again. "I have to get away from him.... i don't want to be hurt again." I gingerly touched the still healing cuts on my wrists as i ran. I saw a clearing. "Oh god, I’m saved." It was like the light at the end of the tunnel. As I broke through, I saw the light vanish. It was a cliff. I had just trapped myself. I scrambled to get back into the forest, to find another way to hide safely. But... he had found me... it was stupid to have run from him. His cold gaze stared at me, making me feel smaller. "Aphelia, why did you run? Your sister got hurt because of that." My eyes widened. My sister. I had forgotten about her... in my rush to escape, I had forgotten the one reason I was there, taking this torture. Did I mind? Not if it meant we could have a better life. Or, I guess, that she could have a better life. My head bent with shame. I had hurt the one person whom I loved, for my own selfish reasons. He moved over to me quickly, placing a neck shackle around me, dashing my hopes of escape again. “Now, tell me how you escaped Aphelia, and your sister won’t be hurt.” My feet dragged across the ground as we walked. “I escaped thorough the wall this time.” She just nodded, tight-lipped. “You know you will be punished for this right?” I nodded this time. I wondered how bad my punishment would be this time. The place I called home stood darkly in the distance. At least my sister is safe… for now. He stopped before we entered the castle. “I figured I would tell you what your punishment is Aphelia… 1 pint of blood.” I rubbed my shoulder blades as I remembered the last time. “Yes father” I mumbled. It always hurt when he bit me. So much pain. But, it was all for her. Always for her. I can’t be selfish…. After I had my punishment, I sat there in agony, my shoulder on fire. “It’s all for her Aphelia, it’s all for her.”
Diary, I write this in you so I will never forget. I am not allowed to be selfish. I write this in all my diaries. I can’t have anything for myself. Thinking I'm worth something.... that's selfish.
 aphelia the vampire · Mon Jul 25, 2011 @ 07:04am · 0 Comments |
