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Well besides from having to start and finish AP Biology in 6 weeks, starting three college classes, missing and reschedluing my eval three times, and one of grandmothers dieing..............
Well its only the fourth month of the years, and I've already lived 6 dreams. They're from I think 3 maybe 4 years ago.....Anyways, I always know when I do even if I forget them cuz I get like layered vision, real life, and the black and white dream version, and I always feel weird. Like stripped of my mind, all detatched-ish. And then afterwards I feel like crap. Terrible. Like worse than my damned PMS. But at least it doesn't last as long.......
*sigh* I wonder how many times I'm going to be told 'Your too old for your age' or 'You're just a child, act like it!!' before I'm actually an adult at I can tell the to STBFHU you @$$holes!!! Damn that's annoying. I have high enough blood pressure when I'm calm, so shut up and leave me alone so I can salvage what's left of my heart .........
On that line of thought.....Anyone else just wanna hug people who get all depressed from being bullied? I was watching a CSI where this 17 year-old was pregnant and beatch who was the dad's ex got jealous and starting sending hate around the school, then all over the internet/world and got 18 million hits in like 8 hours. And the dad's parents were giving him s**t bout a scholarship and left her. Then She hung herself. I actually cried. When I see a bully, I wanna do two things immediatly. One, kidnap, scare, torture, and kill the bully. I am dead serious bout that too. The second thing I want to do is go to the victim, hug them, hold them and tell them how it doesn't matter what all the other bastards think, it only matters what you think and what the people who care about think, and you shouldn't listen to those bastards. And I'd probably end up telling them how I was always bullied everytime I was around other people, and how I'm considered a homicidal, gothic, emo b***h 'cuz I completly ignore them or laugh at them and move on. Gods I wanna kill one of those bastards right now!! ok, ok, ok, deep breathes. You can't kill people. even if they deserve it 'cuz bulling is like rape. A crime that goes under-puinished, has a statue of limitations, and effects scare the victim for their entire life. And has cost thousands of lives.
Ok I'm going to move on. I had a dream last night for the first time in around 4 months!! It was weird. I don't the first half, only the last part. I think I was with the entire Fellowship of the Ring, we entered this forest. Well we actually ran like hell into this forest. and suddenly we were in this rocky snow filled clearing. And in the middle was this weird black structure that kinda looks like the top of the towers. Anyways. somehow Borromir (I don't know how to spell him) got this wound in his leg, and was like freezing to death to something or other. And Legolas said something (of course I don't know what, all my dreams are silent, I just know from the feeling that Borromir needed help, and Legolas needed my help) and then I came over from the tower (I think frodo was on it. I don't remmeber it too well) and I took off my cloak and stuff (not naked of course, but for some reason I had a ton of layers on and like lost it all to keep him warm. Aren't I nice in my dreams? biggrin ) So after I wrap him up in my donated layers, Legolas and I lift him up out of the snow, which somehow rose so that I was waist high in it, and Legolas of course is standing on top of the snow so we're carring him kinda weird and I end up with most of Borromir cuz I'm the lowest. And somehow we get to the Elven settlement and I'm soaking wet and freezing, and Borromir passed out, and Legolas, I don't even know, he vamished on the way in. It gets all slow-mo and blurry her cuz the rose and nii-chan was up and playing around. But I think we interrupted some important meeting and I layed Borromir down adn waited for a dcotor to come. I think I had a thing for Borromir in this dream. Everytime I have a dream, I have a thing for someone different. I am not a whore, a slut, or a hooker wanna-be, I'm just not good with guys and stuff. Anyways I was looking at Borromir, I think he was waking up, when I woke up to tell nii-chan to put down the Knight's Tale Blu-Ray Disc.
 BSPBleach · Fri Apr 08, 2011 @ 08:24am · 0 Comments |
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